i'll keep fireflies in a jar.

I knew this wont work out.

Its gonna be two to be perfect.

Well i guess this is it.

Baby E u noe i'd always love u and stand by u like how u would.

I thought u would understand but seems like u dont and wont.

Well i'm veh hurt cos i loved u so much i didnt wanna let go but i have to now.

Knowing that u're happier now and knowing that u're ok with nad alr then thats good.

It's time to let go.

Goodbye girlfriend.

I just want whats best for u and i'd definitely respect ur decision.

U know i'd always be here for u no matter what..

If one day u're tired of all the bullshit and drama's u know u can still look for me and i promise to lend u a shoulder to cry on and lean on.

Seems like race is chasing up with me.

And in the end it still does matter.

Labels: goodbye my love

I was out on the sat.

I was supposed to go over to bugis but then i didnt go in the end.

Met up with stefe and we were supposed to head down to farmway but found out it was a scam.

Then we went to ehub.

It was raining when we wanted to leave so we went to eat before leaving.

Someone called me!

Anyways met up with the double J's.

Met up with u after that.

We walked to whitesands then back to my area.

Talked talked and more talks.

Thought we poured out everything alr.

Went to catch breakfast in the morning and then went back home to shower.

My itchy hands led me to unlock ur fone and read everything.

I got upset, then woke u up and asked u down to trash it all out.

After everything, we went to catch our first movie together.

IPman2 was heaven!

Superb!!

Walked to whitesands, then went to lepak.

Sent u to the bus stop then went to meet J for awhile before heading home.

Labels: god pls watch over us

Just the other day i made a big decision

I could have ignored it but i went ahead to fix it.

I deleted u off my facebook.

Knowing that many post were coming at me and to bring me down.

I also went ahead and deleted our pics from my fone.

I had to do all that otherwise whenever i look at em i wont be able to move on.

Today im feeling much better even though i wont be able to see ur pretty face, read ur post or anything.

I took loads of courage to delete u off.

I even cried while i forced my mouse to click on delete.

But honestly i had to stop somewhere and i made that my final pour.

I think i'll be better this way.

Having to see ur wall posts and all is killing me.

How can i watch u be happy and suffer on my own this way.

Rmb u once promised me to get a couple watch?

Where was it?

Did u make it happen?

Did u bother saving up to get it for us?

I dun wanna have to answer those questions.

I jus feel like u gotta ask urself all that.

In that 3 months, i've done so much.

More then i would have done for anyone.

But did u really appreciate it?

I dont wanna assume.

U can answer that as well..

Knowing that u were a muslim boy but still wanted to share the feeling of christmas with u but all i got was reprimands.

Till today i'll nvr forget what u told me.

U said 'imma muslim and someone wanna act smart and celebrate christmas when i dun do so'.

It kept me wondering if it was wrong to do so.

Is trying a new season too much for u to handle?

I wont deny that it was the best.

I had much fun.

I saved up money to go get u presents.

U didnt give me anything but i was happy cos i saw that smile on ur face that money cant buy.

We were at T3 and we went back to days when we were small kids.

We drew, colored and designed.

Till today im still keeping it if u even remembered.

I had many dreams of celebrating ur birthday with u.

U were the first guy i brought home to meet my mum, my aunties and my frens.

I dont know hw much that meant to u but it meant alot alot to me!

Its really hard letting go of u cos i went through so much with u.

Thick and thin.

Rain or shine.

U were the first one who celebrated valentines with me

U were the one who was there for me and with me when nenek left.

I'll nvr forget how u sat there quietly to hear me out and hugged me when i cried.

Not saying a word but just syg-ed me and told me u'll be there no matter whats gonna happen next.

Even on the day nenek was cremated, u were there for me.

U tried so hard just to put a smile across my face.

U were there every single day.

When i am down, angry or upset u would offer me ur arm and let me bite.

It hurts but u just wanted to let me vent my anger.

Everytime we quarrel, u would mend it and fix it.

Everytime i get lazy of walking u would piggy back me.

No one has ever done that!

Rmb the times we fell together?

Whenever i walk pass those places, till today i would smile to myself.

Recalling all the times we had together is super painful.

Remembering the things i did for u puts a smile on my face.

I dont have patience for art but i sat there doing photo frames to folding roses and all.

Going to ikea in the morning to buy bottles and cup for u.

Having ikeas breakfast with u and all.

Eating at Bk's with ur swollen tongue.

Cooking spicy noodles forgetting u just pierced ur tongue.

Waking u up cos i had nightmares.

Watching u sleep.

Forcing those blackheads off ur face and recovering it with a mask while u were aslp.

I was like a little baby then. (:

No one has nvr made me feel like a princess till the day u got in my life.

Regretting is the only word i have for us.

I regretted the way i treated u and all.

Wanted to change over but u wont allow me too.

Love and hate, ups and downs, we pulled through so much till the last min u walked out and left me.

But today i see a happier u.

I'm glad that u're finally happy.

Happy with the one u always wanted to be with.

With the one who doesnt always make u wanna cry.

I hope u're really happy with this.

I dont wanna bother u and ur new life anymore.

The other nite was the last time i was gonna hear ur voice.

I used to ask myself, are u missing me the way im missing u?

Crying urself to bed like i do?

Would u be coming back to me soon?

Show up at my door step, hugged me and tell me everything is over now and u're back for good.

Come back to love me once again.

And many many more.

But just the other nite i got all the answers to my questions.

I gotta start telling myself, brenda this is reality.

Brenda he is not coming back again.

Brenda he is happier now.

Brenda he doesnt wanna be with u anymore.

Brenda u are missing him like crazy but he is missing someone else.

Brenda u are crying urself to bed but he's hooked up on the fone with a smile before he goes to bed.

Brenda u are fatter and uglier then the girl he is with now.

Brenda u dont deserve him becos u're just an idiot.

If u're reading this, i just wanna tell u im sry.

Sry for the way i treated u and all.

Im sry for everything.

Im just sry i cant go on this way anymore.

Im sry i said i would wait but im moving on.

Im sry u're not coming back anymore.

Im sry i have to pull myself together and stop all thes nonsense.

I WISH U ALL THE BEST IN LIFE.

AND I PRAY FOR THE BOTH OF U.

I GIVE U MY WARMEST REGARDS AND HAPPINESS.

Labels: when it all comes to an end

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