Was at irah's place till last night when i suddenly felt like going home.

Cabbed back and was on the fone with AZ till the line got cut off and i realize he fell asleep.

FB-ed then went to sleep.

Woke up, continued texting.

Said somethings that i was not supposed to but hurt myself with those things i said.

It was almost over.

I dont wanna stay home i wanna get my ass out!

But no one is there for me.

I felt like i've changed.

I don't wanna say u changed cos i keep seeking myself first.

If i wanna say others i gotta check out my butt first.

I was upset last night cos i felt like i no longer understand u.

No longer find myself able to click with u.

No longer feel close to u.

Jus felt that the things u did annoyed me.

Felt like we're really drifting.

There's nothing more to talk about.

I nvr though this would be it.

I dont wanna elaborate no more.

I'll just keep it to myself.

Someone once told me to voice it out but whats the point when u dont even see it.

I dont wanna give it up but i dont know how long more i can hold on