Met up with stefe, shop and saved, loyang point, 109 to grannys to bake.

Had loads of fun again this time.

Went back home at bout 10pm, walked, reach, chilled.

Went back to shower and met baby.

Baby waited for me downstairs for the next 30mins.

Lepak-ed, cabbed over to eerah's.

Chilled and had fun.

Dan dan was there too.

Anyways baby gave me morning breakfast.

He just lose grip of me and i fell off the chair and hit my ass and head!

Loud boom!

I cried like pregnant clouds.

Chilled till afternoon, went back home.

Then ya so on and so forth.

Baby left his keys with me so i might be going down to pass it to him tmr then catch the last bus back.

Fingers crossed cos i dont know what the plan might turn out to be.

Gonna hit the sack real soon.

My eyes feels really really heavy already

Toodles all human beings

I deleted tagged cos someone was not happy bout me holding on to it.

I thought that might have made that someone happier but apparently i was not.

After i deleted it, that someone was still pissed with me.

But well i didn't regret cos i deleted it cos i wanted u to be happy.

I deleted it cos i didnt wanna see u angry or upset.

I did it willingly and wads more wads there to hold on when i've alr got you.

You hung up the fone just like that and so i went to shower.

When i got out i sat there waiting for u like a fool again.

Thanks!

I switched off my cell phone and went to bed.

This morning i switched it on and all i got was just one text from u.

And that text made me more mad at u.

Cos it seems like everythings my fault.

Fine then.

Babygirl i'm sry if i seem like im taking out my anger on u.

But i'm not so dont worry.

Anyways i dont know what are we right now.

The other day we were talking and i realize we have nothing to talk about already.

We used to have so many topics till we didnt know where to start from.

We used to laugh and giggle like no tmr.

But it seems too fine right now.

I wont let go but i dont know where to begin.

Was at irah's place till last night when i suddenly felt like going home.

Cabbed back and was on the fone with AZ till the line got cut off and i realize he fell asleep.

FB-ed then went to sleep.

Woke up, continued texting.

Said somethings that i was not supposed to but hurt myself with those things i said.

It was almost over.

I dont wanna stay home i wanna get my ass out!

But no one is there for me.

I felt like i've changed.

I don't wanna say u changed cos i keep seeking myself first.

If i wanna say others i gotta check out my butt first.

I was upset last night cos i felt like i no longer understand u.

No longer find myself able to click with u.

No longer feel close to u.

Jus felt that the things u did annoyed me.

Felt like we're really drifting.

There's nothing more to talk about.

I nvr though this would be it.

I dont wanna elaborate no more.

I'll just keep it to myself.

Someone once told me to voice it out but whats the point when u dont even see it.

I dont wanna give it up but i dont know how long more i can hold on

I need a change my timing alr.

I am no longer affected by the alarm and thats bad.

Well im starting to think if i made the wrong move.

Im like playing checkers one wrong move and i'll be down.

I don't wanna have to break someone's heart and say im sry.

I really hope this words.

I know i wanna love u.

I just dont know how far this can go.

I'm like living in nightmare.

I'm afraid u'd walk out and leave me.

I dont wanna have to think so much.

I gotta start looking for a job.

Keep my mind off rubbish.

He got pissed with me yesterday and we quarreled.

I put down the phone cos i didnt wanna have to quarrel with someone i love dearly.

I almost cried but i held it all back and pulled it off.

BABY E finally called.

We talked on the phone.

Then conference with A.

I want us to lead a better life.

I need to take my car license.

I needa start loosing weight.

I Need so many things.

I need cash too.

I'm gonna start looking for a job.

I dont care what u've gotta say so just keep it to urself.

Happy 2010 to all.

Well the starting havent been the best but at least i hope its picking up and forming into line nicely.

I dont know what i did but i know i screwed up a friendship with my girlfren.

I gonna call her in abit.

Talk things out.

I gotta start hunting for a job.

And well i've been going out almost everyother day and night.

I gotta settle down with a job and stop all this nonsense.

Well i gotta go for now and i love my people!

Gotta get back into place.