Was supposed to go to babygirls place but then i quarreled with her over the fone and gave her fcked up attitude.

Walked to stefe's instead.

Lepak-ed with her till 11 and left.

Had my fun there.

Cabbed over to look for babygirl.

Talked to her and i cried again.

Teman-ed iqah out to macs.

Saw him there.

Went back to baby's place and watched iron man with iqah.

Fell asleep and woke up in the morning.

Kak yuni was damn cute.

She said finally she saw me around in the morning cos normally i would come in the night and leave early in the morning.

She said i was like super woman.

Syg texted me.

I was grinning from ear to ear.

Cabbed home at 3, talked on the fone and went to get ready and temaned bree out to paya lebar.

Went to get her package, bused back and met stefe.

Went home at 11.

Gonna get my hair done tmr!

BEST THING!!!!

Toodles.

Baby's i love u!

Thank god i found u!

Texted syg.

Syg called.

Met syg at whitesands then cabbed to syg's place.

Cried in the cab and syg wiped them off.

SWEET SHIT.

Waited for syg downstairs.

Went to some area idk where.

Walked to 711, bought cards, drinks and sweets.

Walked to YP.

Sat there and talked again.

Syg bullied me.

Syg told me everything from the start.

Was kinda jealous when syg's girl texted though.

Cuddled around and cabbed to macs.

Had breakfast with syg.

Took 39 back home.

Fell asleep in the damn bus.

Woke up and lucky i was still in pasir ris.

Got off, walked back and half way through it rained.

Nice.

Off to shower in abit.

BABYgirl i really miss u!

It just keeps coming back.

Its the first time i got this kinda feeling and someone told me its a feeling of heartbreak.

What am i to do???

I love u but u only love ur girlfren..

I'm really so tired.

Babygirl talked to me on Msn and i broke down.

She finally talked to me.

I dont know how to face this shit without her.

I'm feeling so weak from all this torment..

I dont know how much longer i can hold on.

Dear G pls be there for me.

I miss having him around.

I miss talking to him.

I miss him holding my hand.

I miss him so much.

I thought i was strong enough but i'm not what i thought i am.

I'm like breaking down in front of the laptop right now.

I texted him and he said he doesnt know how.

That made me cried like a baby who just got up from a nightmare.

I dont know how too!

I needa smoke!

I wanna down cough mixture!!!!!!

Sat there by the cold gushing wind.

Syg's so weird at the start but it all got better after awhile.

I felt the cold shoulder.

Walked to white sands, drew money and cabbed to changi airport.

Went to T3 then took skytrain to T1 then to T2.

All that just in search for the same popeye.

Gave up and settled for macs.

Fooled around, went for smoke break and went to look for somewhere we could settle down for abit.

Syg got bored of that place so we decided on going to east coast.

Ok i know like again!

Sat there chilled for abit then talked things out.

I cried cos i couldn't hold back any longer.

I really dont want syg to do all this outta pity.

Syg gave me 10bucks to cab home.

SWEETNESS

Well shall not elaborate any further.

Gonna shower and hit the sack soon.

Sunday morning and i just got back from the beach.

I LIKE THIS.

Oh ya and caught the sunrise with syg.

And now babygirl pls come back to me.

I miss u like some stupid kid lost in the shopping mall and waiting to get picked up

I cant live without u!!!!

Fck the cough mixture.

It tasted damn bad.

Hate the one from poly.

Woke up, felt like vomitting.

Dug my bag like some drug addict looking for my carebear.

It smelled so good.

It has love's perfume on it.

I miss him so much.

Why has it gotta turn out this way.

Would things be different if he was not attached?

Why does it have to be this way??

I really want him mine.

I want my christmas wish to come true.

I'll have faith till then.

I miss babygirl so much.

So many things happened in such a short time and i wished she was here to face it with me.

BABY BABY I REALLY REALLY MISS YOU!

I woke up on sunday afternoon, went back to sleep at 6 in the evening, woke up later in the night.

Went to shower, ate, went out to meet A.

Cabbed over.

We went to play tai ti, got bored after afew rounds.

We played with all our cards opened.

We got bored and so we cabbed to mustafa.

20 bucks to get there to do nothing.

Walked around, laughed, smoked, played, ran around, hid around.

We went to look for perfume and that idiot sprayed in my face.

I found a old school fone and i passed it to him and it was actually a bloody spray.

So he sprayed it on me and i swear i stank.

We went to the kids area and he took the snow spray.

I grabbed mine even when he tried to block me.

His was not working so i sprayed at him.

It stank like mad.

When we left mustafa i swear i smelled like shit.

I had all kinds of smell on me.

Even my hair had perfume.

We walked a long way and ended up at the national library.

I needed to pee damn bad and the only toilet was at B1 so we had to get down a flight of stairs.

I was damn lazy and he pulled his pants and said to me "come come i carry u down".

We then went back up and sat at the open space.

It was a smoke free place but we just smoked.

We sat there for the longest time before getting our ass out of that place.

His bus came but he insisted on sending me home first.

In the bus, i initiated on going to ikea for breakfast.

So took bus 12 from bugis, alighted at the interchange and took 58 to ikea.

Bus 12's journey was like shit!!!!!!!

Waited for ikea to open, went to eat and went back home.

IKEA's food is damn solid.

We had french toast, bake beans, hot dog, waffle and he had tuna sandwich.

He bus-ed i cabbed.

Got back, showered and hit the sack.

TIRED TIRED TIRED~

SHAG SHAG SHAG!

I MISS BABY!

Baby came over to fetch me and we went back to her place.

Stayed over at her place for 3 days.

We walked twinkle together then came back, went to meet bree at central, went back to her place.

Cool shit i spent alot alot of time with her.

We smoked weed, chilled, talk crap and more.

I'm so missing her now.

We were playing tai ti when her iphone got jammed.

Then so she didnt wanna play cos she was panic-ing alr.

So while me kak yuni and lisa were playing she suddenly had to ask kak is there such shop as UNI GLOW.

Then the 3 of us stare at each other looking blur then laughed at her.

Cute sia.

She's so slenger.

Did so many things while i was there but im too lazy to list it all down.

Shall keep it to myself.

Anyways she didnt layan me cos she has her sexy love.

So i layan-ed myself (:

Talked to stupid boy on the phone and he's so supposed to call me back but idk what on earth he is doing.

Mummy caught me.

I thought she alr knew bout tt.

Anyways everyone at home is giving me attitude accept brina so yeah.

Went back home, showered, met brina, bought food and went back.

Was being a total bitch cos i didnt tell her that he was home and so he had to cook maggie.

LOL.

Supposed to go back home at 6 in the morning but fell asleep.

Supposed to wake stupid boy but someone switched off my alarm.

Supposed to go cut hair and afgan with baby but went home instead.

Gonna meet bestfren and that bapok soon.

TOODLES

I shut my mouth but still wanna insist then so be it.

Dont wanna go into details.

Went down, called him but yeah he didnt answer.

Called my babygirl, talked on the phone and suddenly she thought of fayyadh.

Lucky he stay near me.

We stay one basketball court away from each other but that idiot ride motor.

I waited for a very long period of time thinking he might not show up till i heard engine coming from the back and when i turned, it was him.

Baby girl asked him to treat me like a princess and he did.

He even said baby asked him to hug me.

He brought his books along to study.

So sweet man.

Anyways, we played 2 rounds of tai ti and let him study after that.

After awhile, he said he was gonna meet his friends to study and baby was still insisting i go over.

So anyways there's a first time to everything and so i finally ride on a motor.

It wasn't all that bad after all.

I did it cos i didnt wanna disappoint baby.

Anyways at baby's place, i did my hannah, tasted it, cooked noodles.

Came home this morning even when i didnt want to cos she's going sentosa.

Baby have lotsa fun k!

I couldn't sleep but i tried to put myself to bed.

I was thinking of the days i worked with wildrice.

I miss the actors and actresses.

I miss the time i help them do things.

I miss their smiles.

I miss their laughter.

I miss the wardrobe people.

I miss the kids.

I miss the hair stylist.

I miss the busy and super airy moments at work.

I just miss it all.

Its all still too raw to accept.

Seriously FML

I skipped work today.

I'm too lazy.

YAY meeting bestfren later.

Havent met her for ages siol.

Talking to stupid boy on msn.

He doesnt have to sleep.

He hasnt sleep since last night.

Girlfren went MIA.

Gotta go.

sneezing away

Gonna have to get ready for work soon.

Called someone and seems like someone is having extra income.

Well life is so unfair.

Anyways work have been ok cept the fact that im working with an irritant.

I so want this to be over soon!

Cant wait man!

counting down.

toodles

Im gonna get ready for work soon.

Boring shit.

Work work work.

I miss babygirl so bad.

I miss that asshole a little here and there too.

Well i'll get over it as soon as i've found the right one.

I wanna go get my hair repainted soon.

Toodles

Woke up at 1+..

I'm smiling right now cos the first thing i saw was my cute tattoo.

Little things like that would keep me happy and smiling for abit.

Work's coming to an end!

Can't wait for it.

Counting down from now.

Another 18 days to go.

I felt like i had been a total bitch the other day to someone who cared.

I guess i'll be heading out soon to get something and apologize.

Gonna get ready and head out to work soon..

Had the weirdest dream ever

I'm dying on the inside.

I wanna get an honest answer from you but i guess that's just too much of a task for you

Dear G please help me..

Just moment ago, i had an answer and it was the best shit i got.

The biggest bomb ever in my life.

My heart feels like it just got ran over by a truck.