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And so it goes..
I did it again. I pissed someone whom i felt close to. Someone who i nvr wanted to lose. Someone who will understand what i was and who i am. Someone whom i treated as a elder brother. I know i disrespected and hence deserved to be lectured. I'm sry and im terribly sry for the things i said and done. Pls forgive me! If u're reading this pls pls pls forgive me. I realised i was more childish then before. I realised i didnt do things rationally and all.. I want this i want that but it has nvr strucked me of how i am gonna get it. I'm working on my damn flaws. It hurt me bad when it reached my face that i was no different from that bitch whom i hated the most.. I want alot of things but i am working for it. I know i should not rely on people at all. I'm still growing. What he said strucked me. I should not be so childish and i should learn how to be independent, i should not have no confidence in myself and i should learn how to stand up for myself. Why is it that only when someone turn their back or flare up then will we really learn and understand what is going on? I'm not gonna rush everything from now. I'm gonna learn to take baby steps. First im gonna complete this thing on my hand. Then start to work and earn my allowance Then build my confidence as i go along. And for L if it comes den it comes if it doesnt then dun fcking think bout it. Thats what im gonna screw into my head from today on! For the last time, I'm SRY! Dear G i donno when this childish part of me is gonna grow but pls be there to guide me as i go. K is a elder brother to me i pray that u take his anger away and forgive me soon. He's leaving for a holiday and i pray for a save journey back and forth for him. J is like a sister close to my heart as well.. Dear G pls dun take the both of them away from me. I really love them as my brother and sister. In jesus name i pray, AMEN! Labels: U're like a brother to me and i dun wanna lose it. not now and not in the near future |
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