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And so it goes..
I've realised the more i learn the less i understand. I tried my best already but there i am lost in my own small town. I'm still traumatized. Its all freshly brewed and printed in my head. I sense little demons swimming in me. I wanna be stronger then them but it seems like i'm losing control. I'm about hitting the level of being mentally ill. I'm searching high and low just to ask myself why. But the answers just hide away from me. My world's getting smaller not crashing down on me. I'm losing everything slowly. My patience has been stretched to reaching the max soon. My tolerence is high enough. My fire in me is wearing out. The flame is getting smaller and smaller. I can feel it coming. My heart beats faster as it draws nearer. Breathing gets harder as i hear them reaching for me. I'm gonna cry but i push those tears back down. My throat hurts by then and its blocked. Everyone's slowly getting on my nerves but i bear with it all. I know someday i'm gonna give it back to them all at one go. I know i'm damn sick but i'm gonna make them feel bad for doing what they did to me. I shall not curse them. I won't blame them for my ill brain cells taking over my innocent ones. I'll never think they are plotting against me. Cos i don't plot. I wanna work things out instead. I'm gonna flick them off when i've reached my place without their help. I'll be extra nice extra sweet to those who were nice to me. I'll be grateful. But those who treated me like dust and those who has hurt me, i want u all to be sry. I'll not lay a finger on u.. I won't play dirty tricks. I'll whack it right up ur ass. Just u wait motherf**kers! Labels: i nvr said u liked me |
вяєη∂α σηg яι тzєє♥ lesson #1, dont ever judge a book by its cover. 
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