And so it goes..

The thunder scared me but i was too sleepy to even bother so i continued sleeping..
Was supposed to go 443 with winnie the pooh nanny but laziness took over us so we ordered instead.
Internet's down and that sucks!
the earliest they can come fix it is on next monday.
Anyways i'm taking twinkle to the vet tomorrow..
P.S I CANT GET ENOUGH OF MY BLOG
ITS JUST SO BEAUTIFUL
Okay done!







Listening to - Hot N Cold
mood - BEST!

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Okay so i went out with Jelly so i can get my phone plan done!
I went out at 6+ due to the damn heavy rain..

I got Jelly and myself the same elmo!
I got myself a watch at oni 4 bucks!
And yes i finally bought my slippers! (p.s the guy at new
urban male was damn hot!

And so we went to get my plan done and got a free phone!
Guess  what i did to the phone??
I SOLD IT!!
Went to catch dinner at ajisen!
Went to downtown after which and got my slippers.
The guy was damn fcking hot!!!
Jelly insisted that i buy 10 more pairs so i can see him longer.
Anyways we went to get water and we bought sushi!
Cabbed back and went to lepak bawa blk..
Ok it was like at the back..
Guess what again!
Jelly lost her elmo!
And i went to find it for her and i found it!
DAMN COOL i know!
And we started to cam whore!









TADAAA!!!!!!




















Ok done!
And anyways came back showed off my slippers to everyone at home!
Insisted they say it looks good!
Lepak in the room and jelly changed blogskin for me!
she fixed all the problems!
OK GO!
toodles!!!

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MORNING HUMANS!
Okay so my head hurts like fck and i felt like i was gonna puke so i went to nap.
Woke up at 9.30am and woke jelly up at 10.28 and called macs!
EARLY BIRD GOT BALLS TO EAT MAH!

And see what JELLY FORCED ME TO DO..




TADAAAA!
THAT WAS TO PUT KAK TWINX AKA TYRATWINXIE INTO THE FREEZER
P.s JELLY forced me to call her tryabeanie!
And also if u must know i was playing with maple syrup and JELLY insisted we freeze the maple syrup!
hahhahahs
okay dok.

Anyways reading all my older post before i went to bed was kinda cool..
I laughed at my very poor ENGLISH and i realized i brushed up so much on it.
And i used to be so fcking CHILDISH!
I feel so grown up now!
feweets!!!
lol.. 
OK go!

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I know Right..
Look at the time now!
And i'm blogging my ass instead of sleeping.
I can hear Jelly snoring away!
Anyways i was damn pissed with someone and the result of being pissed was to get HEADACHE!
BEST I KNOW!
I LIKED IT TOO!
MY HEAD IS DAMN PAIN.
ITS GONNA BURST!!!!
I WAS BOILING MAD AND I DIDNT GET TO SCREAM MY LUNGS AT THAT BASTARD
BITCH LA. 
THAT BASTARD TEXTED ME IN A NICE WAY FIRST AND IN THE END TRIED GETTING BACK AT ME..
AND GUESS WHAT!
HE GOT IT.. 
COS I LOST!
HE ATTACKED ME AND GOT HIS WAY!
I LIKE IT!!!!
AND HE WAS THE ONE WHO FCKING TEXTED ME AND ENDED UP SCREAMING BOTH HI AND BYE IN MY FACE!
SUCHA BITCH RITE.
TRYING TO GET BACK AT ME USING SUCH CHEAP METHOD WAS JUST LOWLY GRADED!
MOVE OUTTA MY FACE.
GOD THANKS TO U MY HEAD FEELS LIKE ITS GONNA SPLIT APART!
GOD I REALIZED HOW MUCH I HATE U!
FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK FCK URSELF IN THE ASS AND GI MAMPOS!

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MY ONE AND ONLY GIRLFREN!
SHE'S MY WALL OF STRENGTH!
MY WILL POOL!
MY POSTER PICTURE!


MY FLOWERS FROM MY LOVE LA! GUNDU!!!


Okay so pictures tells a thousand words!
I went back to sleep when eerah called me telling me she can go out.
I asked her to go shower and all but i went back to sleep..
Yea yea i know!
She bought me SUNFLOWERS!
God!!!
FIRST time in my LIFE i'm getting flowers..
And yes my FAVORITE one summore.
So anyways she came over and waited for me to get ready and after that went to whitesands.
We went to get earrings cos all my earrings broke alr.
i got eerah and myself the same pair..
COOL SHIT I KNOW!
Eerah is like a gundu!
She saw so many sets of earrings and she was lost.
And she told me all of em were nice!
Anyways We had SWENSENS!
And after that we went over to simei to meet NADIA and all..
I know rite..
NADIA!!
Okay and we left at 8+, called jelly and went to pick her up.
The uncle was a bitch..
He drove so super slow!
So went to white sands again!
For the second time.
Then a couple pissed me off very badly..
After all my day was SWEET!
LOVES EERAH!

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And so it goes..

Last night i tried to go and sleep early but i couldn't.

So i resulted to having drink cough mixture!

Okay so i drank it again today.

I abided but the rules and he is gonna scold me..): 

Well anyways stop being a copy cat!

U know who u are..

If u copy, Maybe try and stop!

Well feeling sleepy so nites!

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I tried!
Bitch i said i tried!!
I hope i don't go tripping on my words.
Tears just rolled down my cheeks.
The whole scene still spins around in my head vividly.
I'm tryna kick the habit of sleeping late so i don't end up thinking of u.
Actually i Just miss the way ur lips touches mine.
And the way u tease ur way to my lips and smile.
The kinda smile still lingers up there.
The entire scene reruns in my brain every night.
I'll always get the chills down my spine cos it was just so sweet.
I'm sry for doing all this but i can't always be the one trying to keep things going.
I'm all worn out.
I hope u'll find the right one soon.
I give u my best wishes.
This is for u(:
I cant even know what to say
I've been hurt I've been played
and I'm so ashamed
I can't even cry it's that deep
You just lie and you cheat
Like its nothing
see you said that you loved me to and so I trusted you but i guess that subconsciously I knew
but i never met a boy so true
never thought of me and you
but you was just fronting
aye boy thanks for nothing
i never knew enough about you babe
i guess i only have myself to blame
now im broken hearted and shattering
you were just playing a game
nothing anyone can do to convince me babe
i was living in a lie, just a masquerade
now i only know that ill never be the same
you were just playing a game

Please understand that if i don't do all this its gonna be hard on u cos after all my girlfren is the one u like.
I still dont know why u chose not to reply but i still thank u for the stupid ending and the way u're treating me.
U're the one who made me change the way i feel about guys.
But it shall start from u again.
Its gonna take me no time to start hating guys all over again!
I'll make sure all dickheads suffer from what they want.
I'll make sure they don't get it.

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God someone pissed me off so badly.
Today was just one of those days.
Where everything i did reminded me of you.
Every song i heard, some how related to you.
I hate days like today, because they remind me of the one thing i don't have.
This whole few sentence made my blood boil.
They were not meant for me.
Its just that there's some reason to why these sentences are rubbish!
Hahahhas fck off la.
U look like a piss of shit and yet everyone in frenster is telling u that u look hot?
Don't u even know they were deceiving u?
It was an understatement.
If u even know what that means!
Asked my Girlfren to brush up on her english when ur's is the rabak one?
Hahahas Loser!!!
Get this in ur face.
Even if u don't fucking read my blog, i still gotta say this
KHAIRUL U ARE ONE TIME BIG LOSER!!
I'm falling outta love.
Hahahhas hate this Word LOVE and VALENTINE!
Hope i don't have to suffer from all this kinda rubbish from guys.
I'm twisting myself out from them.
All i wanna do is MAKE OUT!
Fcking desperate i know rite.

Anyways stefe came over earlier on and we went to my grandma's place to collect my mama's stuff and went over to central to get dinner.
Came back had dinner and we went into the room to play tai ti.
Fck i kept losing.
Jelly and stefe kept winning.
Pissed me off..
Went down to smoke and then sent Stefe out.
Went back home and finally i got to talk to my baby girl!
Yes!!!

Listening to - halo
Mood - Satisfied cos i gotta fck someone in the ass!

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I slept at 3 and thats good cos i usually go to bed only at 5.
I'm screaming around right now.
Listening to millions of songs and screaming them all out
Feeling blood stains in my throat.
I finally realize why i'm lingering around him alr.
Cos i only remember the part when we were making out.
Its been hanging around in my brains.
And killing my brain cells.
From red blood cells to golden brown blood cells.
And each time i thought i miss u, its actually not.
Fcking retard i know.
What to do?
So it means i don't really like u at all.
I only like the part that i fell in love with.
I wanna find someone to make out with me till my tongue burn out.
God i'm falling in love with intimate moments.
So loving!
Gotta have interviews for guys to make out with me till i become a expert.
Gotta buy 10 cartons of push pops to train on as well.
Eerah u know what i mean!!(inserts rolling face & cheeky smiles)
I starting to become a bastard and a bitch.
I'm changing.
Oh no.
But i seem to like the change so fuck off!
Guys are nothing more to me already.
I no longer fall head over heels for them.
Anyways i was planning to go down to get nasi lemak but sold out so we called macs.
We ate till we almost puke.
I played with the unfinished fries.
I made twinkle balance fries on her cute little black nose.
Jelly and i are going nuts.
We're talking through msn all when we're both just sitting next to each other.
I like how retard we are right now.
Acting like monkeys!
Ok done

Listening to - love lockdown
Mood - stupid cranky locked down?

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And so it goes..

After much consideration i've came up with a decision to give up on LOVE and K.
I'm moving on u bitch!
Take that in ur freaking face!!!!!
Its ok if u don't wanna contact me..
Its even better.
Easier for me.
Question me and ask me how could i be so heartless and i'll tell u im sorry everything is Just like that and its over!
Saying u like me and wanted to have something to do with me?
Erm can i say i didn't believe that?
Gotta be a doctor evil so i'm sry.
God Jelly finally came and meet me.
We went out to get food for mummy and myself..
Then came back straight.
I know i know its boring but i feel its better then going out and see those couples acting all loving and all.
Other day cannot loving ka pe?
Must only be todae?
Ya i'll curse all the couples to be happy today and quarrel like rabak tomorrow.
Anyways when i was at the minimart earlier on, 2 mats pissed me off..
I was waiting for the auntie to give me back my change and they just cut me off..
Please they are so ugly!!
Fck em all..
I think i'm beginning to hate guys!
God how!!
And and and i called eerah but then she was asleep alr..
Damn sad la..
But neh mind!

Listening to - Crush!
Mood - creepy crappy ((:

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Bloody fucker!
I couldn't go to bed..
I slept at 6 cos of some asshole.
Piss me off.
U walked outta my life and now u're walking in again?
Shit!!!
U left 2 days and came back again.
When i text u, u rather not reply.
When i don't text u, u also don't bother.
I'm getting aggie!
My mums pissing me off as well..
Its said that if we shift, i'd get my own room cos i'm old enough for my privacy.
But now, they're deceiving me..
What's more they don't understand so many stuff!
Alahai just fck it la.
anyways HAPPY VALENTINE TO ALL!

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God i woke up at 2 in the afternoon and went back to sleep and woke up at 6 in the evening.
Called stefe cos she gave me a miss call..
Went to prepare and met her at the control station..
Went to SGH and visited her fren's mum..
We left and went home..
Walked all the way back..
I'm freaking hungry!!
I havent eaten in a day...
HUNGRY HUNGRY!!
God i miss eerah!

Even though i might say i'm alrite and all, at times i still miss u.
Like today when i was in the train, i was listening to the song that u and i had in frenster.
And as i listen, the picture u took in the train came to my mind..
Every night i go to bed, i'd listen to the same song over and over again.
Checking on my fone hoping to receive ur msg.
But i get nothing.
That how much i miss u.

Two 'o clock and I wish that I was sleeping
You're in my head like a song on the radio
Maybe were friends
Maybe were more
Maybe it's just my imagination
Yeah it's five in the morning and I can't go to sleep
'Cause I wish, yeah I wish that you knew what you mean to me
Baby let's get together and end this mystery
Sitting here turning minutes into hours
To find the nerve just to call you on the telephone

Something like that i wish i can tell u.
This is how i feel..
U're throwing me here to survive on my own but yet u tell me u love me.
Thanks ar..

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And so it goes..

I slept late and woke up early to go for grad day.
It was all boring shit!
But then i got eerah there with me.
Not many ppl from our class went anyways..
After the grad, eerah and i left..
We didnt stay for anything.
Went back to my place and waited for 3.
We were starving but we waited cos we wanted to have sushi..
In the end it was not halal so we walked around and settled for another place..
After which we went back to my place and lepak..
She went home at 7..

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Every night i go to bed, i'll think of the times u go to bed at 4.
And when u don't reply, u'll blame me for replying late.
I'm sry for letting go..
I don't know what more to do.
Letting go is wrong and when i don't let go, its also wrong!
What am i suppose to do?
Anyway i'll be going to School tmr..
Its graduation day.
I don't feel like going but well..
For love i'll go.
Gonna go to bed soon so i'll be able to wake up tmr..
Good nite.

Bottom line: i miss JELLY!

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And so it goes..

Tears fogging the vision ahead of me as i walk down the cold and quiet street ahead of me..
There was no turning back.
Begging u not to leave me and giving me ur words was only a minute of assurance.
Turning ur back on me when i'm feeling at my lowest point of time shows what and who u really are.
Its so true.
Everything that i'm seeing is beginning to surface.
Ur words and ur promises have just sunken into the water so deep.
I'm trying hard to find it with my bare eyes.
Crying as i search for those promises.
Trying my best not to believe every word people say.
No ones there.
Trying to believe in myself but my mind is going wild.
The solid me is falling apart.
My ears start to hear things, my heart start to beat 5 times faster.
Hearing my heart beat so loud, telling myself to take it easy.
All of me is getting weaker as i strive to find those reasons in life.
No ones there to hear me out.
No ones there to lend me a shoulder to cry on.
No ones there to tell me every thing's gonna be over soon.
No ones there to assure me.
No ones there to keep me going.
Everybody's ignoring me.
The cold in me is taking over the warmth.
Everything's freezing.
I can't hold on any longer.
Telling myself BRENDA U GOTTA BE STRONG has left.
I lost everything.
I admit imma loser.
Do whatever u want!
I don't care no more.

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And so it goes..

So i went twice and i got disappointments..
I went out for dinner last nite and was on my way to meet eerah when someone texted me telling me there would be a family meeting..
I met eerah for awhile before rushing home..
Retard..
I don't know how much long will i be able to take it..
Having to keep things all to myself suck big balls..
Anyways i'm done!
Toodles

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I went out with brina to get food from central.
Some people are just boobs sucker!
Anyways jelly came and look for me then we went central to eat.
After which we came back, went somewhere, walked around somewhere den came back.
Went 7-11 and jelly made me laugh till i almost past out from coughing.
They asked for her IC and insisted she was not legal yet..
She got pretty pissed off and asked them to catch her and call police!
Laughing and rolling on the floor while typing this..
She wanted to take the bus but i insisted we walk back..
Slacked under the void deck and waited for the mini mart to open.
Went to get stuff and went back!
K said K wanted to think of me everynite!
Lol.. 
I grinned widely upon reading it and jelly laughed at me!
BITCH!!
Keep telling Jelly she rock my hot panty liner!

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Fck it..
I tried to upload pictures but then its just so freaking long so i gave it a miss.
Stupid shit!
Anyways i was talking to K on the fone jus now and i was late..
I was supposed to meet my fren at 2 then 3 but in the end i was still late!
Things are getting better between me and K..
I said he was weak and he said he was tired!
HAHAHAS!
Okay so i guess i'll be heading over to eerah's place on thursday.
Spend more time with her!
ok toodles!!!

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God i don't know what more to do.
I pray for strength to keep me going.
Life's getting outta hand.
Missing my babygirl so bad.
Called her and talked with her on the phone till 3+ in the morning.
She was tired but insisted that she wasn't tired yet.
Was texting K and i felt so bad..
K was working when i sent those kinda message.
Cleared everything out and we're fine now.
Baby girl i got something i wanna tell u!
Damn copy cat.
Confirm after u hear u will scream.
Anyways babygirl that kinda guy don't want also tak mati la..
U still have me and i have u.
Going out with C later.
Toodles!

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Okay so on saturday when i was still sleeping cos i went back at 6 in the morning from eerah's place, stefe called and told me she was coming to look for me.
Then 1 hour later she was at my place.
And i went to get ready cos we went out with her frens to shop for his things.
I took a freaking long time to get ready cos i had many intervals.
Met them and went to bugis.
Then from bugis we walked to peninsular..
I swear her fren shops worse then a girl.
Then from there we trained back.
Went to 425 and slacked.
Left earlier cos i went to meet JELLY!
Stefe left with me.
And she went off at 11..
Jelly and i talked bout life under the void deck till 1.12 am before going back.
We're like next to each other rite now!
And anyways i plan to stay awake and go to church without sleeping!
Cool or what!

Everything's running my way when i'm not at all ready for it.
I havent done everything i needa do and wanna do.
Still making plans for it.
Shall request to start on march so i have another month to get things done.


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