Fuck it!

So i woke up feeling sleepy and feeling like a zombie.

Plus i was feeling too damn cold so i couldn't sleep in peace..

I was supposed to meet erah but in the end stefe called so i met her instead.

We went to lepak with fatin till 11+ before going off..

I temaned stefe then took a cab and went over to look for eerah.

I'm currently at her place using her com to blog.

We're making each other laugh for no specific reasons.

And when i went mad, she said i had too much redbull.

I miss K so badly.

I wanted to meet but then K was too tired.

So we gave it a miss..

I felt so sad but at least i got eerah baby with me..

I'll be at her place till morning before going home.

I'll be going out later with stefe and fatin.

Insyaallah i will meet them.

K toodles!

Imma happy kid..

I went out at 3 in da morning.

I don't understand why i'm using this word sneak.

But yea all i did was shut the door quietly.

I met my special fren!

EERAH i met special fren alr!

Cool shit!!!!

We talked till bout 5+ going 6 then went off.

Cos you're HOT then you're cold 

You're YES then you're no

You're IN then you're out

You're UP then you're down!

It's black and its white

We fight we break up

We KISS we Make up

K K KAES!

Anyways imma happy kid for now.

Wait till i go and see what my life is all about, i'll fall apart by then..

Big loves!!

Woke up in the afternoon, got ready and went over to find eerah.

Bought ballon for ________!

Omg i fell in love with the ballon as well..

After that i went over to TTSH to visit my granny..

I cried..

I cried so badly cos i couldn't stand seeing her in pain..

She was in so much pain that my heart hurts.

Stayed there with her till 8+ and went back with my auntie..

I went over to my auntie's place then went back home from there..

ok done!

So tell me what we're waiting for..

Happy New year humans!

Well the mood for new year is vanishing soon..

So soon i don't even dare think of it.

Imagine in the past we would be so busy that we go 1 house 1 day but now we completed everything in one day..

And day two we used to wake up damn early and get ready and off to granny's place.

But now we get up damn late and we don't even know if we have to go over.

Spastic!

Anyways my class is starting as well..

I feel so lethargic.

I don't have the excited feel..

Dammit!

I miss my baby girl!

She's having toothache..

And i wanna meet her but that's not possible..

Okie dokies.

Nothing much to illustrate.

Good day and Good bye for now

First u made me do things for u and so i did..

I didnt say a thing.

I mopped the fcking floor last night and todae u are mopping again.

Slamming things and TSK-ing irritates the fck outta me!

I spike u so what..

Like she said u will end up growing old and unloved!

I give up on life alr..

I'm saying it and if u wanna read and start telling around then go ahead..

I don't bother if i die anymore.

Want me dead then come..

U ask him to do then he didnt do u do then u vent ur anger on me for fck ar..

They nvr do their part i did mine but u're still attacking me for everything..

I'd spike u to death if u're not my mother!

He's doing that to u but u dont see it.. stupid!!

I hate everyone in my family now!

Just everyone and everything..

Its Ur fault but i have to bare it!

I sat down and talked bout life with jelly late last night and then we went to bed this morning.

I've always been talking bout u and wondering how is life for u.

I wonder if u ever think the same way too.

But i guess u're just too busy with ur frens!

I mean u're my BPOPE!

Well i miss u so much if u must know..

There's still so many things i have to do but its all left undone..

And there's still so many things to settle..

I have no more time..

I have news and tabloids all over the place.

I dont know where to start..

Anyways bitches are still all around..

Even my auntie is one time big fcker!

New years coming, i still havent done so many things..

Its like 2 days away to new year!!!

I havent got my shoes, bag and i dont know what else..

I havent settled the place, time and distance!

I havent met up with my babygirl!

Oh god talking bout her i miss her so freaking much..

I used to call her every night..

But well things got worse.

I missed the timing so i'd give it a miss..

She would be tired by then..

Sometimes the reason why i don't call her is cos her sister will scold her for her loud voice..

She's always excited so she would talk loudly.

I wish i can stay over at her place!!):

But well something came knocking knocking so i can't!

Thought i would be meeting stefe today but no..

Cos she has dinner with her family todae and the the reunion dinner itself is with her granny's.

ok yupps..

Its weird how i think things between us changed so fast in so little time.

I think we no longer understand each other.

Or is it that u nvr even know who i was at all?

U changed till i can barely recognize u anymore.

Its been really tough trying to keep things going.

But u wont even try.

We're gonna fall out soon trust me..

Since u think they are good then go ahead..

Don't bother me..

I don't like them..

I told u before.

I condemned them in ur face if u remembered..

You'll never understand how much i was tryna stop friction between us both..

We don't spend much time together but i still cherish u if u must know..

Stick off with those friends of urs if u really think they are that good!

And if u really think they will be there with u throughout..

I'm sorry to say this but they might be the once harming u.

They allow danger in ur life..

Continue to trust them if u must.

If only u know how much they and i are afraid u will turn bad..

If only u know how much they and i are afraid to lose u.

Trying their best to keep u going.

Good luck to u and sorry for the bad timing.

Supposed to be out but was really tired..

Forced to wake up cos someone kept pressing the door bell..

Opened the door and got my stuff!

Super happy or what!

Adding to my happiness i'm going out LATER!

Jelly has been so nice!

She will be going with me later..

K so i have a list of happy things!

1. I get to go out later
2. I called baby girl and got to talk to her 
3. Sathina called me and we talked the other day!
4. Mummy's getting me something!(its a secret till i get it)
5. Twinkle has been a good baby(and she's sitting on my lap now)
6. New year is coming!
7. School is STARTING!

Okie dokies and some not so happy things..

I bought cool stuff yesterdae..

So i went to tampines with my sister and joanne JJ!

We went shopping with her!

I wanted to buy a grey top but in the end i gave it a miss.

I think its so nice!

But then dammit its kinda tight at the arms!

I must slim down so i can shop shop shop for more stuff..

Jelly came down and find us..

We continued to walk around till almost all the shops were closed..

Then we walked to jelly's place and from there we cabbed home..

Went to central with jelly at 3 in the morning and she insisted on bringing twinkle along!

And so the 3 of us went to central together.

Cool shit or what..

And when we were there jelly insisted on bringing twinkle into shop and save!

Twinkle was a good girl!

She walked without any complains!

K K going out later again!

Super happy!

JELLY going out with me!

Wahhahahs!

TOODLES!!

I'm super elated!!!

Someone msg-ed me!!!

And i slept away my sunday!

Gosh tell me bout it!

Cool shit cool shit cool shit!!!

OMG so i havent blogged for a super long time as well..

Anyways i went out on fridae with jelly..

Saw Ma baby girl while waiting for jelly to get ready!

She accompanied me all the way till jelly came down!

Sweet rite..

I know!!!!

Went out to central to meet stefe on sat!

Went white sands with my sister and then went tampines..

OKay toodles!!

Yea i know!

We met up!!!!!

GOSH!!

I know i know tell me bout it!!

I walked to central to get her then went to get food before heading home..

She and i spent time at my place then after which i walked her out..

Anyways i dont know the reason why i am doing this but yea i just texted someone saying i didnt understand why i liked that someone but i just think i should not be. 

I think i'll learn to let go.

Thanks for the best times that someone gave me..

Reasons reasons and more reasons!

I dont get it..

Why must people tell lie!

Its so stupid!

I mean shouldn't u tell a lie in a clever way??

U're telling a lie when u know people are close frens!!

BODOH!!

Well i just screamed and i felt better..

I was screaming at my mum..

Not actually screaming..

I was telling her bout things i didnt like..

And omg!

Imagine..

We're a family and we're so complicated..

So many conflicts here and there??

Thats life..

I even became super selfish!

Thats bad but well forced to!

I'm sry..

TOODLES!!

I either dont blog for a very long time and let my blogger rot or i keep blogging!

Okay so here goes..

I made jelly wait with me despite her being tired..

Hahahahs ok anyways waited for mummy to wake up and left for work then called Mac!

Omg i can nvr believe how dumb i was..

I called and kept quiet..

Then the next thing i know, i was through to the other line.

And i had the person waiting..

Then when i ordered, i made the guy messed up.

For a minute i forgot wad creamer was..

I asked him this..

B: err wad's that white powder called?

Then i started to mess up everything..

I said err may i have the coffee made and honey..

Then he said sure i will give u sugar as well..

Then i was like oh ok!

Then when he sent it here, i ended up having 4 packs of maple syrup, 9 packs of chilli, 6 packs of pepper, 5 packs of creamer and 6 packs of sugar!

Cool shit huh..

hahhahahs ok dokies 

Anyways eerah u are my maple syrup!

hahhahhas

toodles 

woke up in the evening to eat..

when back into the room and questioned myself why.

And so i forced myself to puke it all out.

Went to sleep and when i woke up i puke a over again.

went back to sleep again..

I love eerah and i miss her like fck!

I'm sick sick sick as hell..

Toodles!!

This stupid feeling just wont go away.

And i was missing u like fck..

Looking at my phone hoping to receive ur msg..

But u didnt..

If only u know how i felt..

And it has to come my way when i'm at my worst.

I'm having fever, blocked nose and everything.

Sneezing till my nose hurts and tearing.

Having downed the entire bottle of cough mixture just so i can stop thinking..

Only waking up to feel like a fool..

Why wont i learn my lesson.

I must learn to understand once bitten twice shy.

T did this to me but not learning and still falling for the next is worst.

Having known u like someone else but still falling for u is like omg!

I'm feeling all sucky and not being able to put myself to bed..

Recalling the times call me 4 in the morning when i was sleeping just so i can talk to u all the way.

I know it was a short term thing but i wished to myself if only it could last and if only u could be mine.

Thinking the word 'guilty' would alert u..

But i was too naive!

I should have known better that this is all pure fairy tale..

I think if she didnt told u i like u, u wouldn't have tried so hard to not hurt my feelings..