i'll keep fireflies in a jar.

Okay when everyone is reading this, i've alr edited the time.
So i went to school with eerah and after school we went to wait for nadia and fiqah to finish class..
Then walked to east point, and from there we went to lepak..
Its danny's bdae..
Okay i dont know him but i know him as fiqah's guy..
So we chilled till 7 before eerah had to head home..
So i went over to nadia's place to continue lepaking..
I lepak with her all the way till 1o plus before walking out to meet BGF then went home..
I had a nice time over at nad's place!
BGF waited for me like damn long and she called me like 6 times but too bad batt flat..
So we catched the last train home and it was kinda exciting to me cos as far as i remember, i can count the number of times i catch last train home..
Walked to 443 and had dinner with her..
She ate fish soup and i had chandol!
Walked back and lepak bawa blk again!
Cool or wad..
And soon after we went up cos both of us needed to shit badly.
And now its 5 in the morning and i'm up in her room with her lepaking of cos..
Ok so i just wanna say i love stefe, eerah and nad to the core..
They are the addictions!
I'm not going to school tmr cos BGF is not working tmr and we're going out..
And eerah is the best!
I'm not going so she's not going too!
Cos when she doesn't go, i dont wanna go too!

And before i finish, i would like to tell those who i have offended that whatever starts from me shall end with me..
And to fateha, i've apologised and i've teared sincere tears..
To sha, i admit i am fat but the calling of names, i dun like it..
Cos how would u feel if ppl start calling u names and some names that u dont like and so do i.
I hope u understand..
And u said if u didnt wanna pay me what can i do?
There's nothing i can do actually..
Cos all i can say is i didn't say i was treating u to everything..
If u remember i said i treated u to hans river and as far as i know i didnt take back..
Cos she when i say give i give and when i say treat i treat but when i didnt say it then i didnt..
So pls dont go ard telling ppl different stories..
Thank u!
Ok toodles!~

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I was indeed so wrong..
I'm feeling lost and i can't even talk to anyone..
Her mum doesn't allow me to talk to her..
All i wanted was a listening ear and she turned me down on behalf of stefe..
I feel so wrong..
I felt like i was on a swing..
I went up so high and i was thrown off the sit..
Now i know what she means..
She's saying that when i got any thing, just find my family and don't go to her daughter..
When her mum treated me that way on the phone, it suddenly shook me and i realised that not only her mum didnt accept me..
Its to everyone..
Be it around me or not..
I am the outcast..
No one likes me..
I know im being emotional..
But i feel like i've just been stabbed by a knife..
It really hurts..
The blood's gushing..
I feel it..

Labels: Im sry..

So so so what!!

I didnt go to school todae not cos i was afraid..

Not cos i had problems..

Jus stat i wasnt feeling well thats all..

Am i sucha bad person?

The only thing bout me is that im fat!

Everyone has flaws but i dont think im that bad..

Im home alone..

And im blasting my ears off!

I like it this way but i hate it cos im all alone..

Look at the conversation i had with cailing:

brenda- its all a child's play says:
u at least still got bf to go out with msg with and talk with

brenda- its all a child's play says:
i talk to the wall msg myself and go out with my bag..

good friends are worth more than jewels says:
wah

good friends are worth more than jewels says:
say until like u veri ke lian lo

brenda- its all a child's play says:
ahhahhas pls lor i really is very ke lian can

good friends are worth more than jewels says:
dun sad la

good friends are worth more than jewels says:
go sleep la

Okay so this is all..

And im missing Irah like alot right now..

I thought i did alot but i've not done alot..

And the more i think i was right, the more i was wrong..

Its simple but i was the one who made things feel so complicated..

If only i had special powers to turn people into different kind of cartoon characters when i dun like them..

Okay done!

Labels: bleh gadoh la sia

I went to school todae eventhough i was damn late..
Cos eerah said we had to go so we had to go..
After school i went to find stefe..
Then she got all stressed up cos of some stupid germs..
They nvr stop spreading and cause trouble..
And i so dont want to quarrel with em 2 as i respect their parents alot..
They are really nice people..
Anyways eerah and i were supposed to brainstorm but in the end, we couldnt think of anything..
Stefe came to look for us and i left with her..
Went over to my place then to hers..
Went to the chalet with her then her dad sent me back..
Sorry stefe..
Im feeling very sick and i know u're tired too..
Got home and sat there wanting to puke badly and watched the suria show..
I don't know why when the show ended and the song began to play, tears rolled down my cheeks..
I dont feel good about something but i dont know how to express and put them down in words..
Toodles

Labels: Yang tlah terukir abadi

So i was late for school and late for test..
Basically i was late for everything..
Anyways i went to class then when school hours were about to end, we had some problems and then eerah very clever..
She threw the idea away to those dogs and thanks to her we had to crack our brains..
Well we thought of a better one anyways..
Its iqah's idea anyway..
Exchanged fone with iqah and iqah sry..
Im the largest reason why u're late..
Ok and so we went to lepak at 114 simei till 5 then went to meet brina and jellybean at tampines mall mac's..
Brina waited for me for an hour..
So when i got there, i had to withdraw money and then chill out at macs..
We kept laughing even though i had problems..
We waited for 8pm then cabbed home..
Jellybeanie is funny!
Okay i felt like i was eating like there is no tomorrow..
And i was telling my sister that if i continue to eat, i'll end up sleeping and waiting for the damn frogy prince to appear and kiss me before i wake up after a hundred years..
Okay done!
Toodles

Labels: Fck u and ur bullshit?

So i went to bugis to get my skirt then went to get it altered..
Walked around and stiall can't find the damn shop and finally we found it!
And it took me 30 minutes before i can get it back and it was a fast and good job..
Damn cheap but damn good!
Ok i know im fcking big but im glad..
From 44 to 42 to 38!
Then went to study with eerah till 11pm..
Ok maybe most of the time i was talking to iqah..
I wanna have fun before it all ends..
Ok done..
Toodles

Labels: i was a happy kid?

I didnt go to school on mondae but i said to moma that i didnt have school..
And todae i went to school..
I woke up at 6.20A.M, went to prepare then took bus 12 to afgan and took bus 28 to eerah's place..
Waited for her to be done then went down to take a puff before heading for school..
When we sat there, we saw baby..
We were talking bout him and we saw him..
He buat bodoh so we hack care too..
Cabbed to school as we were late..
Got to school, got the kinda attitude we hate so we walked off as well..
I love eerah, nic, stephanie, sharon and nico..
Ok and after school, i went to simei and eerah and i went nuts due to the sun and the long distance walk..
We sterted singing and talking rubbish..
Ok it was fun and anyways i bought lunch for sister and myself...
And now i swear i so wanna quit eating fishballs..
They are nice but whenever i take them, i'll wanna vomit after that..
Ok done..
Toodles!

Labels: i benchi not having to see u in school..

So i woke up when stefe called and i told her i got not enough sleep..
Then she said ok then means u not going to church la..
Ok nvm then bye..
So after i put down the fone, i dug myself outta bed and texted her..
Went to shower then went to catch a ride from her pups as usual..
This week was a nice one..
We laughed alot!
Talked bout death and everything..
Came over to my place first then went to meet hanz and kill..
Chilled, they left, then we went back up..
We continued to chill and play computer games all the way till 8..
Stefe went off and i sent her then back up again..
Im thinking negative..
How~!!
ok done.
Toodles

Labels: u're ever so cute

Ok sry for the lack of updates and stuff..
Went to school on fridae with eerah althought we were damn late..
When we got there, none of our cliques were there..
So we went for class and after that we went off..
We went to chill for awhile before walking back from simei..
We walked pass tampines garden..
Then from there i took cab home..
And todae i was supposed to go out but cancelled so i stefe came over and we went to grab dinner in the evening..
After which we went to meet mahmud and all..
We lepak till 10pm then went off..
Ok thanks bye~!

Labels: aku rindu kamu.. all i talked about was u todae.

So i woke up damn late and i gave school a miss again..
Had macs for breakfast...
My sister came back todae and told me her friend mcron passed away the day before.
He met with an accident..
Well..
Rip..
I'll always remember u told me i looked like ur PO..
Seriously its saddening to hear this kinda things and u will never know when is ur last day or minute or even second on earth..
Cherish is the word i have left..
I just wanna take this time to say im sry for all the wrong's i've done..
I apologise for everything..
Done..
Toodles..

Labels: i walked pass u like i didn't care.. infect my heart skipped a beat.

We all woke up late todae but so what..
We still made our way to school..
Met up with eerah and sha at tampines interchange then went to school..
Very late for class so we went to school for lunch first then to class..
After school we laughted our way to east point..
Went to lepak for awhile at simei blk 131 then walked back to afgan with dyba eerah and fatheha..
Went to get bubble tea at afgan then bused back..
Before im done, i just wanna say i saw 'mr' s todae..
TWICE!
Ok done..
Toodles!

Labels: imma happy kidd todae

I cabbed to fetch eerah then off we went to school..
We got fooled 3 times..
And while cleaning the damn mirror of my compact powder, i got a deep cut on my thumb..
Dumb fish!
And after school we went to lepak with nadia..
Supposed to lepak all the way together but eerah and her guy went to meet up with linda all..
So i stayed with nadia till 5+ then went back as i wasn't feeling well..
Got back, i fell flat on the sofa and slept all the way till 8+ then went to shower..
Had macs for dinner..
Why has this gotta happen now?
Tak kan school pun nak end alr..
Why can't we just be happy and spend time like we loved each other when school first started?
Why have we gotta fall out only now and especially now.
Im tired of this..
You guys were not like that before the holidays..
I cant say anything when u all went out and tak ajak cos i admit i am not one of u guys as i am a chinese..
Wadever!
Im done..
Toodles

Labels: stop doing this to me im falling outta myself too..

I make friends with my sincerity but this is what i get..
I'm real but no one sees it at all..
But when i make a wrong move, everyone starts to pass judment here and there..
I feel so wrong..
At times i really feel like ending this life of mine..
Those who hate me, if u're reading this u would be happy cos i feel like i hate myself too..
There's more to come but why is it me?
Why do i always get this kinda things?
Look at how drama people can be and they still have tons of friends..
And look i am not drama but i dont have any..
I keep revolving around the same thing..
When will all this end?
This is annoying..
Its nerve recking
I gotta say that its never the same..
You did em wrong but the treatment u are getting right now is better then me..
I just dont wanna talk bout it anymore..
Even if i were to quit and change school, the same thing will happen twice cos i'm just hiding and running away from reality..

Labels: its so unfair..

I got my ass to peninsular with liza to get my jeans then to bugis..
Went to get her jeans, and some other stuff..
Omg i fell in love with a jeans at bugis..
Bought starbucks and then went back to pasir ris..
Went over to granny's place then walked home with shermaine and family..

SUNDAE
Went to church, sneaked out and went to lepak..
Went back to church and went into the toilet to lepak again..
After lunch, went back home.
Stefe came over then went to meet her fren and will be back later..

I witness something and someone and i know i felt sour..
Ok maybe not sour but sad..
I saw it and i knew i want it so i have gotta start working on it just to get what i want..

School's tmr and so goodluck!

Toodles!!

Labels: i want that something mine

Ok so i stayed over at stefe's place for 2 days..
On the first night, we went to play badminton in the dark at the higest story of the multi carpark..
Then when her parents zonk off, we sneaked out to 7/11..
Ate downstairs then went back..
Played card games, talked and laugh all the way..
Slept at around 6 in the morning..
The nxt day when we woke up, we when with her lil bro and her cousin to the multi story carpark to play again..
Then went to grab lunch from loyang point then headed home to get fresh clothes..
On the way we met up with her fren..
So stopped there and talked for awhile before carrying on...
Block shopped as stefe's slippers broke..
We laughted all the way to my place and laughted all the way back again.
And this time her mum wanted us to sleep early so we had no choice but talked all the way till 3 in the morning before hitting the sack..
Talked rubbish and laughted all the way till 3..
Woke up, chilled, got ready and everything and to the greatest dismay, her fren paidao us..
We were supposed to meet at 1.30 at tampines for movie but he didnt pick up his calls..
So we made our way to central to get food before heading over to my place..
Played monopoly!!!
ok done!!
toodles

Labels: my heart beats faster then the norm as school is starting soon

Okay so after church i went over to stefe's place even though i was feeling damn shag..
Watched Money no enough 2 and cried like not my business..
After which got ready and went down to learn how to cycle again..
This time i PASS~!!!
Went back up to have dinner and then chilled all the way till around 9 before heading home..
Thought of cabbing home as its a routine whenever i go over to stefe's place..
But her dad sent me home even though he looks so tired!
Thanks uncle..
Anyways stefe and her lil bro tagged along..
Went down and saw that mad woman again..
Same block summore..
She freaked me out big time..
And when i was walking back from the minimart, a girl waved at me..
And when i went up, it was princess..
She taught i was my sister..
Ok done!
Toodles...

Labels: stefe thanks for coaching me with load of patience

K k kaes i fucking deleted the whole post and so i gotta retype it again..
Anyways i went over to stefe's place ytd..
And i learned how to ride a bloody bike..
But still i cant overcome the fear of falling..
And my butt hurt like hell..
Went back to her house and then had dinner..
We waited for her parents to hit the sack before we went into her room to inhale polluted air..
After which we turned off the light and played poker cards...
Cabbed over to my place this afternoon for me to get ready before heading over to tampines to meet her friend named kill..
While waiting for him to arrive, we went window shopping and saw both nadia and teresa..
So we stood there to chat for awhile before heading over for lunch as we were really really hungry..
After that we went open plaza to look for him then headed over to city hall..
Kill got his jeans from peninsular then after walking around, we decided to go fortcanning to chill..
We left at nine and cabbed home..
And before i forget, i saw u todae!
Mr B i saw u!!!
K done! toodee toodles!!

Labels: i had butterflies in my tummy upon seeing you

Okay thank you jelly for helping me with the shitty stuff for my blog!
You rock em hot panties!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI EVERYONE!
Anyways met up with stefe and we headed over to dyba's place..
Her mum, dad and food was the bestest thing and people on earth..
Her dad was funny, mum was motherly and Haha food was awsome..
Need i say more everything was superd!
Played chongkat with dyba and bloody stacko with stefe..
And best part is stefe and i were cheater bugs!
The game is meant to stack as high as u can without giving it any support but guess what..
Stefe held on to it and we ended up laughing when it all fell..
Annoying kids.. ugly twisters..
Left at bout 6+..
Went over to tampines with stefe and we've got good buys..
First thing when we got to tampines, toilet was the ultimate best friend we were looking for..
Shed em lemak you know!
Hahahs ok just to pee la actually..
And we went to get her bull stud and i got for myself his fav kinda earstud!!
After which, we went to get stefe's noodles and chicky dee chicken!
And went to get mac plurry!
And and and best part..
We played a game aunties love to play..
We chiong to the road side to take cab then raced up infront of this irritable chinese family..
Then when we board the cab, the female tiger stared at us and so we returned stares!
Cool rite..
And when stefe left, we were laughing cos stefe's shit all soot back up due to a cat..
And when i was walking her out, we were laughing laughing laughing and then this bloody dog just barked from nowhere and so i screamed out of my pants and stefe thought wad happened and screamed outta her bra too!
And to conclude everything for the day, stefe and i is monsters!
We conquer places with our laughters together!
We play the outcast by laughing like our parents pay full government tax to be noisy..

Labels: i'm happy but yet couldn't imagine how u would look like..