i'll keep fireflies in a jar.

![29/03/08](SAT)!

aites i took some pics before she came over to my place..

after which, we took more pics before going out..

hahhahahs and it was like really really crazy..

and after that went over to bugis with her..

and got the place we wanna pierce, PIERCED!!!

triple yayz to that manz!!!

mine bleed and her's hurt..

after that we took bus 12 all the way back to pasir ris..

we were supposed to chill out with the other two boys at town but then in the end they paidao us..

WTF!!

then we thought when we got back we could chill with them but then one was sleeping the other one still at east coast..

in the end we both jus chilled out at my place then sent her out to cab home cos it was pretty late..

[mondae]30/03/08

and as for todae!!

stef asked me out but then i didn't want to cos of cos issues..

anyways i'm gonna chill out at home..

thought of meeting her later but then she going home ard 3, 4 plus cos she doesn't wan her parents to noe she went out..

lots of things happened ytd..

but shall not talk bout it anymore..

how i wish mummy will allow me to do piercing..

cos there's a few piercing i really like alot...

but well..

mummy all i can say is that we all agree that u're the best mom on earth!!

we love u to beats!!!!!

I just cant believe your gone, still waitin for mornin to come, when i see if the sun willRise,in the way that your by my side, oooo where we had so much in store, tell me what is itAll reaching for, when were through building memories il hold yesterday in my heart, in my heart

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made, they can take the music that wel never play, allThe broken dreams, take everything, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday, theyCan take the future that wel never know they can take the places that we said we will go, allThe broken dreams take everything, just take it away, but they can never have yesterdayYou always choose to stay, i should be thankful for everyday, heaven knows what the futureHolds, or least where the story goes, i never believed untill now, i know il see you again imSure, no its not selfish to ask for more, one more night one more day one more smile on yourFace but they cant take yesterday,

I thought our days would last forever, but it wasnt our destiny, coz in my mind we had so muchTime, but i was so wrong, no i can believe me i can still find the strengh in the moments weMade im lookin back on yesterday

Labels: 2 post cos of a few empty posts!!!

The Bottom Line
Helping a friend is not your obligation today. Let them deal with it on their own.

In Detail
A friend may be experiencing some relationship problems right now, but helping them out is not your obligation. Even if you think you know exactly what they need to do to get out of this mess, bite your tongue and just let them deal with it on their own. There is a lesson here that they need to learn -- it will help them grow. Plus, if you get involved, you could end up being the bad guy. There are details you are not aware of, so just stay out of things.

this shall be my horoscope for todae..
it seems so true..
and as for me, i think i stired up more trouble..
i told him last night that i still had feelings for him...
i think i did t wrong again..
now i dun noe how the fuck i gonna clear the fucking mess..
i'm so gonna hurt him again..
that's for sure cos i told myself a 1000 times to move on and not turn back...
dead dead dead!!!
brenda now u're so dead!!!!
it’s not always rainbows and butterflies
now how how how~!!!!!
i need someone to help me instead..
his loving sweetness is so so tempting..
WTF!!!!
i really dunno how but i hope i get to meet her todae..
she needs my help but yet at the same time i can't be of any help..
die la die la..
brenda u die la..
fuck siol..

labels:
she's so dead..
she need help!!!

met up with stef ytd to go get some things done..
then after that i realised alot of things about human again..
everydae i'm like learning new things..
then after that we headed over to 425 to chill outz..
then after that she went to meet her guy then i went back..
well todae seemed like alot but not much..
i went down to loyang to meet stef then went to collect our bloody lens then i found that the damn lenses were not the one i was looking for..
fucked up shit!!!!!
its always my bad..
Wad The Hell!!!
then after that it was raining so we went to mac to eat first before going back to GVSS..
then took her Nlvl cert alr we went over to 191 to get ciggies..
i got myself 2 packs cos i lazy wanna go out the nxt time to get it..
then after that walked back to my hse area to meet up with hanz..
long and funny story cos he fought with his mum..
then after tat chilled out till ard 7+ we went back home cos stef went downtown to meet her guy before heading over to her class chalet..
may be meeting up with them again later tonight..
not really sure bout the plans yet..
and so i'll be chilling out at home alone for now..
take care peeps

labels:
she's feeling confused

well 23/03/08 came and lots of things happened..
and its like a long long story..
aku benchi yang ape kau buatz!!!
i'm sry towards adi..
and i jus wanna say i still dislike u although all this happened..
things were all in a mess..
well..
shits do happen but then this time i thought i did it right but too bad i was wrong..
so speechless now..
like that person said, no one can make me jealous..
so yea..
go ahead and try harder manz..
i dun deny that i had feelings for him before..
but its all in the past..
i've packed up and move on..
cos i know i'm that kinda girl no one would like so i gave up..
cos it was no use holding on to him..
i'm feeling all hurt till todae..
when i think of it, i'll abuse myself to kill the fucking anger i felt..
well somedae i'll come back to this post forgetting wadever that happened..
a little of how they tried..
they walked into macs cos they knew we would be there for breakfast before heading home so they came in holding hands..
and tried to let me see wadever mushy things they did..
its like hello..
u fucking hell got a boyfriend and yet u're doing all this infront of ur guy..
and ur cousin wanna get involved as well??
WTF!!!!!
cb larhz...
then nvm..
still sit beside us..
then i thought like maybe be more polite if i walk off 1st jus say bye bye..
but in the end they walked out 1st and bloody hell dunno how to say goodbye..
dun noe any fucking manners..
go back suck cock manz..
and to u..
thanks for making me understand how things work out but i'll hate u from todae on..
and for the other u...
thanks for letting me noe what humanz are like cos u proved it to me..
all i gotta say is that when the night has come, it was really screwed up..
take care sluts and bitches..
and i gotta say i hate you, you, you and you!!!

but they shall be one of my labels and reasons why cos i love them loads...

there's more but they are jus not in this pic thats all..

they stood by me..

labelz:
brenda's feeling hurt

Baby want you tell me
why there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head
You're the one who set it up
Now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now i gotta try my best to forget every little thing you said
But there is something left in my head
Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don't know which way to go
There is so much to say now between us
There ain't so much for you
There ain't so much for me anymore
Baby i really wanna apologize..
From time to time i still can't help but think of u..
I am trying so hard to forget u..
But yet at the same time we're like still contacting..
I really wanna move on..
No one will like me so i think i shld jus forget bout this word called LOVE..
Till todae i really dunno wad else i can say but sorry!!!
Take care aites..
There's so much i gotta say to u but i dun even noe where to start from..
My life really suck big tme..
I really need someone there to heal my pain..
God i really hope u come soon..
Come take me away from this pain i'm suffering right now..
Its not all about love that my life is so screwed..
Lord i bet i dun have to say it cos u alr see wad's happenin..
Lord i'll be patient..
Cuz everythings gonna be alright..
U're gonna be there to give me a warm cuddle and tell me everything's fine..
No one see my pain but i really am so gonna break down..
Allah will dote and repay those who are kind and patient..
BRENDA u gotta learn to be patient aites..
I'm really hurting on the inside..
Come soon..

Labels:
Her heart's hurting to death

okie dokies..
havent been blogging for the past few daes cos my sister's been so hooked up with it..
wed sch was fun..
but then due to some stupid fuckers who dun wanna coorperate..
the leader went home then after that another one wanna go home too..
cos she see the leader go back she also dun wanna do alr..
lame la fuck..
then i and chandra stayed all the way til 6..
she wanted to go back ard 4+ but then i pleaded with her to stay then i went to plead with the teacher to give us a last chance and he did..
i love him manz..
he's mr goodie..
hahahhaahs then after sch i cabbed back to blk 191 and went to get ciggies before heading home..
then after that i chilled all the way at home..
then thursdae came and i gave sch a miss..
then i was chilling out at home again..
then soon after the veri few hours, fridae came..
was supposed to go and meet up with my cliques for giant..
but then i gave it a miss cos of my eyes..
then i went out to meet hanz and there was mahmud..
hahhahas then as we chilled, stef called and she was damn angry and stuff then soon after she came down to look for us..
then chilled till ard 6+ then went to loyang with her..
then hanz they all went to central to eat...
then after that we went over to mahmuds blk to chill instead cos it was nearer..
then after that i went back bout 9+
wanted to meet up with my sis and cousin cos they were at central but they went back first..
i didn't wanna go alone cos i was scared...
damned the fucking funeral manz..
the chinese version sucked big time..
they chant their lungs out..
then i was seriously scared stiff..
i felt the chill and almost cried..
thought that my mp3 was loud enough but then ended up the bloody chant was louder..
hahhahahs anyways i'm falling sick all over again..
wad the hell!!
no way can i fall sick..
its hola holidae baby..
chaoz for now manz..
cos i'm sneezing my way ard..
hhahahah nites to all..

[choco-brandy]

still miss u veri veri much..

dun really noe wad to do without u ard my side

todae went to sch for like a bloody hour and after that can go back alr..
bt then i wasn't home till like 5+
hahhahahahahas had fun with my loves..
my fren got caught outside hsa for not throwing his cigg properly and smoking like underage..
i felt really really sry cos i had a share in smoking too..
but then he said its not bout the smoking thing its bout the throwing thing,..
anyways i still love u baz..
they are great manz..
and i bet i love them loads..
anyways gonna go shopping with them on fridae..
bt then still damn unsure if i'll be going for the outing..
and summore its like the first time we're doing this as a class larhz...
and wad the fuck i was so telling shirley it was my bdae but then she didn't even wish me happy bdae larhz..
wadever larhz..
and my bst fren forgot it was my bdae todae..
sadded case...
anyways she's really back and i love her loads although she can irritate the shit out of me..
there's nothing more i can blog about for now..
but i really miss u veri veri badly larhz B.B.I..
haiz...
there's really nothing i can do..
and tmr sch starts at 12...
hahhahahhhas yays to that!!
means i can slp late larhz!!
Anyways a fucking bitch is tryna find problem siolz..
bloody hasimah not happy with me come and say it into my face la..
dun have to be sacastic one u noez...
bloody cb!!!!
wth..
after the exam i was like talking to my fren wani larhz...
then she turned ard and said to wani bestfren kau ar..
i feel like asking her she isit jealous i nvr talk to her...
fuck off larhz biatch..
i fucking hate u to the core manz..
u better fuck off before i cannot take it and i dunno what i will do to shame u infront of the class larhz..
and jus not to spoil my mood yet, HAPPY BIRTHDAE [BRENDA]!!!
I LOVE U BRENDA..
U'VE MADE IT..
U SUFFERED BUT U'VE GROWN OLDER..

[choco-brandy's bleeding..]

[SUNDAY]
went to church with stef on sundae then after that we had to go back on our own but then her church one of the auntie gave us a ride to the nearest east side of the MRT station...
then after that she went home and i went over to my grannies..
i went there to celebrate my birthdae with my family in advance but no one showed up..
i was sad but i got over it.
soon after i went off to meet stef so i went to tell my granny..
she was the one who touched my heart in the end of the dae..
i told her it was my birthdae and i thought she wanted to wish me a happy birthdae but in the end she took all the effort she had jus to tell me she was sry cos she didn't have cash to give me..
she brought me to tears..

and on the same sundae night, after stef, i didn't noe wad went wrong but i cried myself to bed..

and right now i jus feel that my birthdaes are getting from bad to worse each and every year..
i jus feel that no one cares and i ain't gonna finish picking up all the pieces before i leave tis earth..

[MONDAY]
and when i woke up for sch on mondae, i was rushing cos i was kinda late..
but then when i walked out to meet shirley, we went to get bubble tea..
then at that point of time then did i realise that i didn't bring my wallet out..
feeling frustrated enough that we're alr late for sch and still forgetting to bring my wallet, the lady at the bubble tea shop bloody hell gave me the wrong drink...
i wanted to like fuck her but then shirley was like nvm larhz..
so we walked back to get my wallet..
when we got back, we felt really lazy so we decided to skip the first lesson and go after break..
i cooked lunch for her as well as for myself before we went to sch..
and in the end we cabbed to sch cos the weather was like freakin hawwt larhz..

[chocobrandy is sadded]

and as for todae[sat] i woke up cos my mum came back from her mornin walk and went to get breakfast for me..
then i was like still sleepy but then i woke up alr so i didn't wanna go back to slp..
then after breakfast i helped my mum to vacuum and mop the floor i was fooling ard with the vacuum cos i chasedtwinkle with it and she was damn scared till she shaked cos i trapped her in the end..
but i acted damn nice cos i like carried her up and like try to make it up to her...
*laugh out louds to that...*
then after doing all that, i went to shower..
then when i came out, my mum was bathing so i went to smoke..
hahhahhahas and after that stef called to meet up so we met and slacked all the way till 6+ then headed walked to ruzaidee's blk but then the minimart was closed so we walked all the way to white sands to get rokko..
then after that we walked to the nearest blk and chilled again..
then chilled to 10.30, we walked out to head for home..
while walking, i proposed to her...
then when i stood up i could actually still joke bout it..
i was like why u nvr say yes to that..
then she shouted yes yes yes..
hahhahhas then as we walked towards 425, she was like that girl look like vivian then i was like that girl look like joey larhz..
then after that we chilled there for like 5 minutes or so before heading home..
cabbed home..
hahhahas cos lazy to walk...

anyways its like so not nice to tell lie larhz..
if u didn't like me u could have jus said it..
i really dun mind..

PS:i was glad i saw u anyways..
and btw u're getting hawwter manz...
cheers to that larhz..
anyways its gettin late although the night is young but i gotta have an early nites..
so nite nites..
[brenda is still so down..]

14march came and i swear i was happy..

although the dae wasn't as pleasant and it wasn't so fun anymore..

but i still had fun with my babe..

went to sch, then went 425 to meet up with her then went home with her and waited for her to get ready before heading over to my place and wait for me to get ready..

but when we were at my place, i didn't go get ready jus as yet..

i called my "best fren" and quarreled with him like sot!!

then he kept saying don't u DARE talk bad bout "katherine" who is his girlfren..

then i told him that there wasn't a need to talk bad bout her..

not as if i was so free..

then the quarrel went on and on till we finally settled it..

after i settled the lame quarrel, i went to get ready, then took pics before going out..

hahahahahahhahs we went to marina square to have out buffet at sakae sushi..

but the service was terrible..

anyways and after that we headed down to simei to get things with me..

and after that we went back to pasir ris to chill...

our fav place was taken up but we still went over to sit with the old grandmother who took our sit..

and after that we started talking..

then i wasn't veri comfortable with sitting with her so we left and said we go get drinks 1st..

after which we went hunting for another place to sit..

then sat there awhile, my mum called and ask if i could buy dinner for her so we went 443 to get dinner for my mum..

then we were like auntie's shopping at night..-_-''

hahahhas anyways after buying dinner we went to somewhere near my hse's void deck to slack..

it was near the minimart..

then we saw police..

and we thought they were doing the routine by patroling and then leaving but then they stayed till quite long..

then my girl was kinda like asking if we shld jus walk off then i was like no we shld jus sit here...

so that we dun look suspisious..

hahhahahahs

and so we started joking bout the police and started taking retarded pics again..

and at 11++ we went home..

thought i would slp late..

but then in the end i felt damn tired and slept around 12++...

thats like so early larhz...

and todae mummy bought breakfast for me..

awww how sweet

hhaahahas

okie dokies pics are all uploaded..

this was taken cos she didn't believe she looked alrite with those shoes..
but she looked so cute...

these were before going out...[finally pics taken with my dearest!!!!]

actually the truth why i broke with u is not cos u didn't send me home or anything..
it isn't cos everytime we meet i have to make my way there
its cos i didn't wanna break ur heart after being with u for a year or 2..
cos u asked if i was willing to marry u when i turn 20....
the truth is i don't even noe what will become of me when i turn 20..
i jus dun wanna end up telling u i'm not ready and i wanna break..
only then will i hurt u more..
till now my heart still goes out to u..
u're still the one i save on my screen saver...
i told my mum on the fridae night that i still missed u..
and at that moment in time i almost broke down..

i couldn't take it no more..
i veri much wanted to tell someone but there was no one i could turn to...
and i eventually have to start letting go...
cos i dun wanna get down into depression again...
take care my boy and rmb i'll always be here for u no matter what...
i noe u won't be seein all these but i really hope u noe how much u mean to me..
no one has ever loved me the way u did..
baby no matter what i still love u deep down..
i bleed deep down and i am crying deep down..
i'm letting go cos i have my reasons..
i really dun wan u to noe...
i dun wanna end up hurting u..

AND FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE I DIDN'T HAVE TO TRY TO BE HAPPY COS WHEN I WAS WITH U I WAS HAPPY..

at the same time i'm really tired of all these things that's revolving ard me..
i need a break..
i need somone to pemper me and hug me when i'm down..
love me when i'm sad..
be there when i need someone..
i jus wanna find somone who loves me..
is it really that hard...
why isit i can't find somone who loves me for who i am..
and why can't i find somone who loves me and i love him too..
somedaes i really feel like crying/dying.
trying all ways but still holding strong..
i'm really tired of life

jus no one understands me...

cos i thik i dun even understand my own...

i'm really tired of all this fucked up shit that happened
i wanna go in peace..
i've had enough..

[brenda's down down down]

its the 3rd post for the dae manz..
and i'm like still enjoying it..
and oh ya did i mention i hate copy-cats..
its COPY-CATS that i HATE!!
go on meowing...
i had dreams and it was a big one...
i dreamt that somedae..
i will be who i wanna be..
that dae is a long way to go but if i persist, i will reach there somedae...
rmb u said u still love me, will u still love me up till now??
haven't been contacting me lately...
is everything ok???
i wish i wish..
i wish that i'll be that girl i always wanna be then will i get back with u..
maybe..
i really need someone to love me like every other girls out there..
but then i a jus so diff!!
fuck everything manz..
no one will ever love me for who i am cos i'm fat and ugly...
he said i didn't have self confidence..
but then the thing is that..
i can nvr gain them anymore..
i've been so unwanted that i sank all the way under all the big bags and chunks of garbage..
i can nvr bring myself back to who i really was..
i'm sry to all..
anyways tmr is my dae out with my honey!!
i love her loads and i bet she noes it..
and mama i'm comin home!!!
[chocobrandy]

it takes so little effort to take them all in 5 minutes..

hahahhahas!!

madness took over me..

lovely ugly pics..

i'm so looking for a partner to cam whore with me..

pls come and sign up for interview..

hahhahas

then if u pass, u're gonna be my only one who will take pics with me till we go bonkers..

we'll take it together dae and nite..

hhahahahahs!!!\

its the 2nd post for the dae alr..

and i'm so not so sick of it..

but FUCK!!!

the the light was gone and the darkness took over instead..

and its pouring like cat and dogs + elephant again...

i am like so lucky i didn't go to sch todae cos if i did i wouldn't need to go home after that..

hahaahs!!

good luck to those who went..

love u guys!!

school is called skips for todae..
cos my eyes are red and i have been sneezing alot right after i woke up..
and i only decided not to go sch after i came out from my shower...
so i changed out and stayed home..
felt hungry and ate macz for breakfast..
the guy who sent it was super cute and hott!!
hahahhas he's plum but cute.
brenda: why u stand so far?? u scared ar..
cutie: huh no la.. *walked nearer* tired ar..
brenda: u took the stairs up??
cutie: yuppz cos the lift not working..
brenda: *laughs* sry..
cutie: no its ok..
hahahhahs i loike this cutie..
he is so babybob..
hahhahaahhas
hope to see him ard..
*if cupid allows us to get to noe each other better larhz..*
anyways going to sch is boring but not going is jus as boring...
and omg omg!!!
14 is like so tmr..
its coming its coming..
i'm happy but at the same time, its gonna suck big time cos tmr got CRN exam..
i gonna fail gonna fail!!!!
brenda u gonna fail big time...
but who gives a flying fuck!!
as usual [choco-brandy makes me high on drugs]
ILY & IMY loads!!!

omg todae really sucked all the way till last class which is SBM..

i had OSA test and i am so sure i gonna fail it..

i cried when i was so fucking stressed out..

then after that..

went straight for OFC class with no break..

then nvm..

got test again..

then i was like fuck fail fail fail...

then i tried holding my tears but i cried again..

then went for SBM class after OFC and there, i cried again..

then i left the class and went somewhere behind the toilet to let my tears out..

l0l then my fren was so sweet..

he thought he made me cry so he asked tina to pass me a cigg..

then i went back to class to pass him back but then he said it was ok..

overall everything was fine...

love my babies...

eerah baby helped me add links to my blog as well..

i swear i miss her alot..

but she's back to sch again..

thats love!!!♥

cabbed home cos it was raining cats and dogs..

shirley went off the cab first then me..

hahahhas she seem to hate cabbies door alot..

cos she slammed the door like she was trying to vent her anger on something..

and now i'm like feeling so bored at home..

i miss the wonderful times we had together as a class..

its no llonger the same anymore but i hope things change and go back to where we were like a family...

but i swear i love EERAH, ADIBAH, SHASHA, FATEHA, ISHAQ, TINA, NICO, SHIRLEY, and CITRAN they are dearly loved by me brenda ong...

2nd place in my heart goes out to CHANDRA, JANNAH, EEFAH, FINAZ and the many more..

the rest i love them loads too..

yayz to 14 & 18 MARCH which is coming soon!!!
i can't help but keep saying cos its somethhing damn impt to me..
and not forgetting only the loves, i still have another 2 loves!! i'll make it 3 but name out 2 cos the other one is in my heart.. i love my stefe honey!! JOEY & BABY Joanne!!!
hahahahhahahahahahahahhahaahs!!
[♥choco-brandy♥]

went to sch todae and had fucking stupid CRN test..
fucking CRN teacher!!
she suck to the extreme core manz...
i was like wearing my stud then she was like take it out then after that during test ask me to write down my name and the reason is cos i was with studs..
fuck u many many manz!!!
then during sch my eyes was fucking pain..
den after that when i reached pasir ris, it was raining even heavier...
then shirley accompanied me and we waited for the rain to stop..
while waiting, my eyes couldn't take it anymore so i to0k it off on the spot..
thought it will be ok but then in the end, it was worse..
then i rushed home by cab..
when i was at home the pain really killed me and i thought that slping will help..
but when i closed my eyes trying to find peace, the pain was worse...
i couldn't take it anymore i banged my head against the wall and took the key and ran it across my wrist..
but there was no blood..
so i took 10 panadol and 1 slping pill..
woke up cos joey baby called me..
then after that i logged onto msn and told her wad happened..
take a look at her conversation..
when i read it, i was touched like fuck..
hahhahhas

joey says:
eh fck u la

joey says:
what happened

joey says:
dun like that lei .

joey says:
i tell u . u better stop all these ok.

joey says:
u cannot open dun need bang wall dun need cut wrist and take panadol and slping pills what.

joey says:
bt u now ok not? fck sia. u making me worry la.

joey says:
dun do it again can?

joey says:
n blood also might die one hor.

joey says:
fck la . no body by ur side den u wan do all this .

joey says:
what if u anything happened? no one know ok.

joey says:
fck u lah still can laugh

joey says:
u making me fucking worry can

joey says:
once u got problems den u always like that

joey says:
u can take it

joey says:
ur body might not take it ok.

why do u keep changing??iHATEu larhz!!! says:
so fat sure can take it de larhz

why do u keep changing??iHATEu larhz!!! says:
but then veri pain my brain all blank alr ma

joey says:
hais i dunno la . u always liek that.

joey says:
stop saying that fat fat fat fat fat fat fat thats why can

joey says:
like that i also fat what

joey says:
i can also

why do u keep changing??iHATEu larhz!!! says:
u diff can u not fat

why do u keep changing??iHATEu larhz!!! says:
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

joey says:
whatever

joey says:
got fats also what

joey says:
its fat.

joey says:
nevermind i got to go for my dinner

joey says:
i get back to u later.

joey says:
im sorry to show attitude towards u . i dun mean anything,im just worry my girl. u know i dun wan anything to happen to u . but u always like that. u made me worry .

joey says:
please dun be silly my girl no matter what u no guys want or what so ever. remember u always got me ok?

joey says:
i dun care whether u wan me not. but i know i will always be here for u .

joey says:
even if u hate me i will still be here for u ok?

joey says:
loveyou lots.

baby i'll be ok derhz pls dun worry lerhz..
i love u loads too..
anyways its freaking cold man..
i'm so done here..
PS: joey i love u..
and its 15 not 14 march hahahhas..

[ch0c0-brandy]

these pics were taken when i was slacking under my void deck last night with joanne baby..
hahhahahs and i was wearing her hairband..
i think its cute and hot la..
i loike the hairband manz!!
pls take a look at my spastic face..

and as for this pics i took them while waiting for her to arrive so that i can go down and fetch her..

hahhahas i love her loads man!!!

and as for these!!

its called the smoke party..

its mine and hers..

hahhaahhas

we went late night shopping for these and some other things..

Shop&Save is called likes!!

hahhahahahhahhahahhahahs

i was so bored that i took pictures and uploaded it hahhahahahhahs

and guess i really did skip sch manz!!

hhhhahahahs

am happy i did it though..

i'm glad u're here to save me cos at least i dun complain that i'm boring when u're here!!

PS: i LOVE u like crazy manz!!

u're super super loves!!

Omg!!!

PS: joey i really miss u alot larhs...

and i realise that in ur frenster u dun even have one pic of me and u together anymore..

i was sad but i'll get over it soon..

[CHoCo-Brandy]

[09/03/08]
[10pm]
suddenly feel like blogging so here i am writing but my feelings..
girl i really hope u can hang in there cus i really need u manz..
dun quit..
its alr march we will be graduating soon..
pretty pls..
if not for u i dun even feel like going to sch as well...
i'm sry for all the attitude i show u and how i verbally abuse u..
i'm sry and i hope u will forgive me..
i really love u alot and i need u there with me.,.
pls dun leave me jus like that..
boy i realize the mistakes that i made but then its no turning back cos i dun wanna regret it again..
i hope u can move on..
i'm suffering as much as u right now..
i really wanna stop thinking but i can't
if only there was a antidote to love potion..
i promise to stay by u forever...
but there isn't any..
and i really MISS uu alot right now..
this very moment..
i really need u badly..
i miss ur hugs and everything bout u..
but thinking back on the things that u've done for me, there really isn't anything i can think off..
maybe i did but then love ones ard me said there isn't any good points and there ain't anything that u did for me at all..
they said i shld let go..
and perhaps i fell for ur fren..
i'm sry..
i really didn't mean it but i u understand cos after all i knew them before u...
i'm feeling all down now...
i met up with hanz jus now then after that headed home cuz he went to the airport..
then after that at night i went down again this time i met up with the girl i dearly missed...
then we chilled out till 9.30 then went up to my hse get the cd's then sent her down..
later i'll be going down again cos this time i gonna meet my lover..
hahahhhs
todae like go up and down alot of times lorhz..
hhaahas yay another stay over!!
i'm so damn happy larhz..
then skipping sch tmr.
yayz to that mans..
hahahhahhhas!!!!
omg!!
i am like missing my princess joey alot larhz..
i really hope to get to see her soon..
i wanna give her a teddy bear hug...
she was always there for me in the past and she's so not forgotten..
i love her and i miss her loads..
alrites..
i'm so done here..
chaoz!!

PS:
[chocobrandy makes me high on drugs]!!!!

all of a sudden i feel damn emo..
it is DAMNED manz..
hate it..
cos emo means nothing but plain stupidz..
being EMO suck big time..
but feeling so emo right now that leads to so lonely that also leads to thinking and leads to wanting to cry so badly..
so taking drugs are way big time to cure not having to think!!!
i can't get to slp who carez what time isit nowz..
its me who can't slp..
OMG!!!!
can't slp again??
wtf is happening to me again manz..
i felt like listening to punk music and i think thats fucking emo larhz..
WTF!!!!

song title: imissyou..

anyways i couldn't get to slp so i went to look for my sleeping pills..
then find high and low still couldn't find in the end woke my mummy upz..
then she help me to search..
in the end i found it on my own...
then i ate dunno what medicine and the sleeping pills together...
nice one arhz.
hopex can keep me slping till at least evening time..
if wake up oo early i think i will go and eat more medicine and slp all the way till mondae then go sch...
i think this time i really really miss u larhz..

Where are you and I'm so sorry

I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight

I need somebody and always

This sick strange darkness Comes creeping on so haunting every time

And as I stared I counted

Webs from all the spiders Catching things and eating their insides

Like indecision to call you

would u be the one to stop this pain tonight??
i think i'm back to taking pills..
they are my only frenz..
my true frenzx are pills..
no one really cares for me even if i were to leave this fucking world i doubt anyone will bother...
PS:babybob[imran] i'm sry for all those things that u went through alone..
i'm sry for hurting u..
but this time i really miss u..
i really need u to comfort me and be there to give me ur big teddy bear hugs..
u said that if u find out i abused drugs again u're not going to forgive me..
but i really hope u understand cos i dun wanna think no more that's why i result to taking drugs this way again..
i really love u..
if only i made the right decision..
i need u there,,
i feel like crying now..
i wanna call u but then i guess u're sleeping alr..
i am really damn confuse right now..
wishing for u to be here for me now
pls forgive me for the things that turn out this way todae..
i really need u back..
its way back into love..

its been years since i last blogged..

anyways everything's been messy again lately..

up's and down's like forever..

got into ite simei alr..

and my bdae coming soon manz!!!

love that..

and as for todae, woke up at 9.40 and went back to slp so i woke up at 12pm on a sat afternoon..

after that i went down to get some tibits and i ate like a pig...
i have pictures..

jus take a look at them..

hahhahahahs but they are still LOVES!!