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And so it goes..
its 3am in the morning but i just can't get to bed.. wonder why too.. so sitting by the window i smoked.. i can't help but just watch me burning my sorrows and pain away... shit just happens.. god knows why... i've not been in veri good spirits lately but i just dun wanna show it.. cos i just dun have the reason for it.. perhaps everything just happened too fast for me to even understand... i realised i smoke alot lately as well.. i just can't get an answer so i guess it helps to disstress... but i'm just lying to myself i noe.. cos it nvr did help abit at all.. i can't think of anything i can besides smoking my life away... and everytime i do it i feel veri guilty to my mum.. cos she brought me up but nvr thought i would do this.. i nvr wanted to disapoint her... she trusted me alot... god i really pray for things to change i guess right now i can't quit smoking so easily... dear god, little brenda really needs ur help and ur strength to carry on her every single day and breath.. pls help her lord cos u won't wanna see her suffer like this... sometimes thinking back, i really still miss u alot but there's nothing i can do.. u're found it.. so i'll be still out there looking for somone who cherishes me.. well till den shall be my nxt post.. chaos for now.. |
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