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And so it goes..
i'm starting to feel the chill.. it seems like something is gonna happen soon... i'm aware that i'm in danger... i noe and i see it coming.. i ain't gonna make the 1st move cos its a terrible one.. i'd rather we play the game of chess and play with the dice.. u go 1st.. i dunno how to express this kinda feelings but i just sense it.. its stronger then i thought.. u're like my tears... they roll down my cheeks and after awhile it dries and its over... i understand how u feel... cos i tried my best to stay in ur shoes... but you shld also understand that i can take it no more.. its only the matter of time.. things will still have to happen cos its not a forever thing.. i'm super stressed and super screwed up.. i'm like so dead.. cos ur fren gotta huge gigantic____.. he told my fren... and guess wad.. he shout like no one was there.. and he asked me.. oh gosh i was like so humiliated... at that point of time i just wished someone who walked pass me had a gun and shot me dead.. the whole world knows about it now... and guess by mondae i'll be the 1st to die... that's like so kuku can.. i dunno how to put it down in words but guess i can hold on for not much longer.. cos its realli tiring to hang in there... having to crack my brain realli hurts... i just HATE this WORLD!!! would u be back soon enough to end all this pain i'm going through now??? when will u be back??? and oh ya daddy, its 7month now... and i guess after u left me for so long, i miss u... would u come visit me??? i forgot how u looked like but i i'll feature u as my super daddy... i just wanna tell u i love u!!! i haven't got any chance to tell u this at all.. i realli miss u.. daddy ur daughter miss u although when she was brought out to this world u were not there for her... and was not there to hear her 1st cry... she forgives u after so long... she is still trying to accept the fact that u didn't love her... but perhaps its just that u didn't noe how to love her.. she just wants u to noe where ever u are, she loves u and u'll stay in her heart forever.. i feel like letting go of all my feelings rite now cos i miss my daddy & i dun noe why.. i nvr knew how it feels like to celebrate fathers dae... when it comes to fathers dae, my feelings turn numb and i feel sour cos i see ppl telling their dad's happy father's dae and stuff liddat.. pls take me with u when u're back cos i'll still be waiting.. ILYC,G. |
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