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And so it goes..
she msged me this morning... when i woke up i read it then i replied her.. now i noe what i needed was answers.. only answers were able to make me think... i bombed her with mighty load of questions.. and i got answers... and one of which is nope we can nvr go back to where we were... u've got them now... that place is only our memory to lead..... its only through msges but i cried i dun noe why.. tears just keep flowing down my cheeks... i know i need u badly.. i knew i was that close to u... i nvr knew i would tresure this friendship so much... i knew i miss u.. i'm hurt deep down... but i pull a stong front infront of me... i just dun wan ppl to know that i'm troubled and lost... but still loads of ppl saw my pain... i don't know why but somehow what she said moved me.. i felt the sincerity in her... i knew what she said wasn't just fer saying it.. i asked if she had to let go of her current happiness, to go back to the idiotic unhappiness, why would she choose that?? she said she may let go of them... well.. if it means having to let go of him, why would u choose to come back to me???? i'm just the one who made u suffer and made u so unhappy.. they were the one's who brought joy into ur life... she said she was sry cos she realised she neglected me since the dae she went to her granny's place to stay... well was it cos of that??? was it cos of that we drifted apart?? and there after she got along with the guy and we drifted even further away??? she said she was not fit to be anyone's best fren but she didn't noe how much joy and peace i had with her... she didn't noe she made the best best fren ever.... then she said maybe she was too selfish... always thought she was not in the wrong till then when she finally realised she was at fault, the person is already hurt... i was really lost fer words and didn't know how to reply her but then if we really had to settle down to talk, i might cry all over again.. i'm sry.... i dun think i've got the courage... wo zai ye mei you yong qi zai da shen shou hua le.. i'll hide myself and nvr be the one i used to be... without u, things changed... and therefore, i'm lost and gone ferever.... i miss u alot... but i gotta change... my aiai once said she'll be there fer me but then she got her own frenz too.. maybe i'm not fit to be her aiai too.. i didn't really care fer her??? i wan u to noe that no matter wad i miss u deeply... i know deep down no matter wad happened, i want u back.. but if i gotta be back to reality, i noe i can't have u by me anymore... u take care kkaes.. rmb if u're sick go consult a doctor and eat ur medicine... when u got headache, get him to crush ur pills fer u before taking them... i bet he know's all this by now... bye girl... |
вяєη∂α σηg яι тzєє♥ lesson #1, dont ever judge a book by its cover. 
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