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And so it goes..
i need someone by me right now right here.. but no one is there fer me.. feel like crying but gotta hang in there.. got no one to talk to realli sucks... felt so happy but the mood just left in a swift second... was supposed to go out but then got no space so i am currently stuck at home... time and date spells it all.. if i went, it will be my 1st time lor.. but then cannot go.. i also lan lan... haiz... wish to talk to someone on the phone now.. but then nobody wanna talk to me... haiz!!!!! got no frenz is like tt de... so sian.. if only i had frens.. if only i had ppl who cared and really knew wad i wanted.. deep down i suck... arrrgh... so much fer crying.. i gotta be strong... feeling veri messed up in me right now... have no idea what i want... i just wanna drink till i get drunk.. just wanna smoke and make everything smoky.... just wanna shout and clear my lungs... ppl say crying out i'll feel better bt then no matter how much i cry i am still the same.. no matter how i try to pour out everything, everything is just being bottled up... feeling veri frustrated now... dunno wad i wan... argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why no one love me at all!!! why no one bother to care fer me... i laugh but can't anyone just tell that i'm sad and lonely... i wanna be loved... but just no right person to come into my heart.. the one that i like and love, dun feel the same way fer me... why no one ever liked me???????????? why am i born to be so imperfect.. why is things turning out this way fer me??????????????????????? dun say u noe me u dun even understand me......... no one will care fer me de.. every where i go ppl are walking these streets with someone to hold... but not me.. i walk alone.. all by myself.. no one will come and hold my hand... i'm a monster.. with me ard, no one will be happy... why why why!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate this life.. hate me.. hate everything~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
вяєη∂α σηg яι тzєє♥ lesson #1, dont ever judge a book by its cover. 
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