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And so it goes..
no one could ever imagine how i felt.... i felt like an idiot this morning... standing fer the whole one period was hell... i was standing all alone in the class when everyone was stitting down.... well cos i didn't have a mc with me... so hell was there fer me... so much so fer being a dumb dumb... i wanted to get something from white sands so i got a fren of mine to go over with me... we went there, she got her things and i still couldn't rmb wad i wanted... then when i reached home, i remembered that i wanted to bye dye.... gosh i seriously am getting a bad brain damage.... i ain't gonna recover..... sometimes thinking back, i still can't try even when i'm alr trying my best to stay a loner... at times i still want a partner.. although i try to tell myself that it'll be alrite... its seriously not alrite... i'm still not getting my life back.. fine i noe i'm a loser afterall... i cried and i swear i did... i was chatting on msn last nite and infront of the com, i cried... it was like free flow of mountain due..... it jus ran down my cheeks... i don't noe wad i realli am... no one's ever gonna saave me from this hell anyway.... i'm too much fer any kind soul to help perhaps... i was always in the wrong nvr fer once rite... i still am wrong up till now?? i don't noe!!!!! i need the wall!!!! i need to see blood ozzing out from me before i noe i'm gonna be sad!!!!!! gonna be down down down to the bottom of no where.... i'm hurt..... hurt so badly i'll nvr heal... the wound will heal but the scar will remain ferever..... |
вяєη∂α σηg яι тzєє♥ lesson #1, dont ever judge a book by its cover. 
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